My bad hair day.
Laugh..
Still harping. xp
Sigh~
My Mathematics paper 1.
Teach me how to cry.
I only stare blankly at it.
Well, I missed 5 to 8 questions.
To my surprise, it is of what I know.
But totally forgotten formulae.
I wished I could hug the flag pole and cry out "NNOOOOO.." loudly.
Crazy girl right?
Nevermind..
It is over.
But do you know how stressed I am.?
Chemistry and Social studies together!
All the hard core subjects.
Can I have an extra day to take them separately?
Please?
The hall is practically a refrigerator.
Even wearing my winter windbreaker, I feel cold.
Oh.. Forgot.
It is windbreaker not air-conditional breaker. xp
I just hold my pencil and shook..
I am so dead.
I left my last 10 mins.
Last question.
My right eye sees double vision but my left don't.
The most frightening thing was,
I need to do perpendicular bisector.
How can I do anything with double lines in my vision?
I just tried my luck.
I was too hungry to do too..
Gastric stuck an hour before I finishes.
And a short sharp pain in the lungs.
Blame me for throwing my medicine aside, rejecting to have them.
I will be good~
I will eat them...
FOR THE TIME BEING~
August perhaps
Then, I will be fine.
Then I will report how fine my stomach is.
AND PROUDLY PRESENTS:
My healthy stomach~
Just over anxious examinations made them act up.
All the best for my Chemistry papers!
My siblings have gave a sign that they are very optimistic about their chemistry papers.
Maybe~three in a row!
All of us score~!!
Social Studies time!!
Hey.. I actually kept looking at my cellphone.
Waiting for reply.
To my every surprise, my all silent cellphone rang today.
2 messages received.
Do I sound pathetic?
I can have a totally silent phone~
But it is okay~!
I expected no replies from you.
Because I know, if you sms-ed me, I will be jumping off the building.
No la~ It is jumping to hit ceiling.
I hoped that you would tell me that you have forgotten me..
So that you hit me hard enough that I have gone off crying for months and forget you ultimately.
Though I know I won't..
I hoped that you would tell me that you have found another girlfriend who treats you a thousand times better than I did
So that you hurt me deep enough and decided to forget you.
Though I know I won't.
I hoped that you would say you never want to talk to me because everything was over
So that I feel insignificant in your heart and let you lead a better life without me.
Though I know I would feel hurt.
You won't.
You always try to shatter yours and protect mine.
I wish it is my turn to do that once for you.
Could you smile again?
I see sun shines everyday, sun sets everyday.
As usual, dawn and dusk, I would see you.
You gave me hope everytime.
But I always would shatter mine at the sight of any girls near you.
So.. My heart still belongs to you.
Silly me.
No girlfriend and has not forget doesn't mean will not.
I still need to accept the fact that we could only remember.
And that you still yet to know how you feel.
Maybe, I am not there in your heart anymore.
Just that you are not used to it.
Can you give me your heart then?
Can we turn back our time?
Regardless of consequences, I love you like before.
But sure.
I always have a strong feeling for your presence by me.
I walked by your presence, holding your hands as we walk.
I sit by you having encouragement for examinations.
I have my food with you.
We watch sunrise, sunset.
You may not be really there.
But I imagine you by me.
For whatever I does.
I still yearned to hear from you.
I still want you to talk to me.
I won't demand love from you.
Just let me do the job.
I have a definite answer for your question months ago.
I am still deeply love that boy I used loved so deeply.
Examinations..
I am tired.
These things aside first.
Before I have the quantity to talk to you,
I need good O levels results.
One day, I shall go JJ..
So that I see what I hear from you.
Your school.
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