I went to watch the concert on Saturday.
I went there with brother and sister Vivienne.
The show that we caught was "boyz and ballerina".
Totally spectacular.
In esplanade, the way they dance was supreme.
They could do the dance so wonderfully with a nice story line.
Shall write the next time.
They were all Korean artists.
The best part is they are going to other countries after this stop.
They are experienced dancers.
They combined hiphop and ballet so wonderfully.
That's so cool and awesome.
And we had photo and autographs.
Wow. They will be so famous!
How I wish I can dance like them too~
Korean dancers are cool!
By the way, after hearing my mummy preach, I have a very strong feeling to work very hard.
Tomorrow is going to be Chinese Oral Examination already.
Well, may have to sacrifice the time to play and blog.
To make everything worth my effort.
Teachers, Sorry if I had not handed up any work, I will complete it as soon as possible.
Wee.. Bye~ Need to work.!
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Friday, June 27, 2008
Sigh.. I'm one of the irresponsible students.
Now that Mrs Ng is totally upset, no one would care and bother about her.
No one even apologise.
She is unwilling to teach.
Who else can help..?
I'm so redundant and insignificant in the class already.
What is there to say?
What strengths do I have to persuade others what I think too?
The only I can do is to work hard..
I'm so sorry to be such a lousy student..
I feel so helpless.
Every teacher forsaken students who fail to work.
Do I fall under this category?
It just feels this bad..
I will complete my work very soon..
Sorry teachers.
Caused you to worry.
Mrs Ng don't wish to listen to my persuasion anymore.
It's all my fault.
I'm sorry.
By the way, "O" level chinese oral starts on this tuesday.
Need to work hard.
Today complete homework.
Tomorrow go school's event and Art remedials then concert.
The day after tomorrow practise for "O" level chinese oral.
Someone invited me for a movie.. So happy..
Though I hope to watch ten promises..
But then watch hulks since someone wants it.
Laughs..
Quote:
Teardrop is the twist of rainbow.
Without water, there will not be rainbow.
Experience bitterness before cherishing the sweetness of life.
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Thursday, June 26, 2008
In school!!
Opps.. That's not allowed in school.
Aren't supposed to visit unauthorised website without permission.
Well, I did it anyway...
No one cares.. =P
Opps.. I was thinking..
Use it here then go home no excuse to use.
Cause' the school has a limited time. =P
I'm still someone without discipline.
Heh..
Sigh..
Well, for now.. maybe I'll do this to reduce my temptations and reduce the duration of using computer..
What an effective way. =P
I have no excuse then. =P
I got so many to do. So little time.
I hope Mr Krishnan will not be angry anymore and let me join the Oral practice soon. ='(
But first and foremost, I need to complete his work~
Yeah!
Great then.
Quote:
I can't possibly throw all the starfishes into the sea when they are all over the beach.
I can manage to save some of them so that they would survive.
Buck up!!
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Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Apologies..
I'm not that kind who is meant to be mean.
As an apology, I deleted it.
Sorry.
I wrote it on impulse.
Nearly to rumors.
Yesterday Jiaxian stayed back with me to study.
Little did we know that Mrs Ng hoped that our class would be cleaner.
Then we helped to clean up.
Today, Mrs Ng told the class about today.
ALMOST into a rumor.
That was close.
Opps. I better get going at 8. Zzz..
Too many undone work.
Stella is such a bad girl..
I just want to tell you..
You do stand a place in my heart..
I will remember you.. =)
Take care forever.
Mummy I LOVE YOU~
PAPA TOO~!!
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Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Aww!! Sorry!!
I wasn't on purpose to be online.! LOLS..
Backed..
I'm so tired.
Got to go work for my rest of assignments.
Next time then update!
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Saturday, June 21, 2008
Take each day,
One at a time.
One day at a time
-this is enough.
Do not look back and over the past,
For it is gone.
Do not be troubled about the future,
For it has yet to come.
Live in the present,
And make it beautiful that it will be worth remembering.
This quote is from somewhere sacred.
Found it meaningful.. So save it down.
Precisely that's why diary came from..
I went for movie appreciation with Qianyong and Nicholas.
I become Nainai of Nicholas.. LOLS.
But fun~ He's always bullied by me.. XD
Not showing in theatre.
"Huan Chun."
It's a very meaningful and nice movie.
Showing about a girl who knows how to appreciate what she have instead of blaming her fate.
Despite all unfavourable conditions her aunt and uncle had caused, her adoptive grandfather took care of her.
In the end, she earned the acceptance of them and honoured her grandfather to study university.
Laughs.. Who say I'm blur?
This grandson Nicholas is as blur as me.
Anyway, do you think Jc is easy to study in?
Nicholas has good grades for A levels too..
Sigh.. Worry~
Mm.. Jamming..
Sigh.. Homework..
Sigh..
Tired.
Acting on a stage alone isn't easy.
What's more, one who hallucinated is worst.
All along was dancing on the stage..
Imagining another person as a companion but all lies.
Until one day she discovers, acceptance is the only way out.
So.. Miss living in her fantasy.
Rest a little more..
Then, I'll go study. =D
Maybe.. MAYBE go jamming a while.. Bring all my books~~ > <
How? Everyone is there.. > <
Go la.. =/
See ya~
Oh right..
Not coming online or posting after holiday I suppose..
Too many undone..
Major is coming.
So. HEH..
Resting. October?
Maybe.. =)
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Friday, June 20, 2008
Sad..
Someone is in need of AB+ blood type~
Anyone can help?
Bone marrow needed..
Call 97838531 if you can help.
MILLIONS OF THANKS!!!
Life is fragile..
I'll donate if I can.. =/
We were silly..
Need guidance.
Sunrise is a representative of hope..
Sunset is an await to be fulfilled wishes; a better tomorrow..
Happy today.. =D
I miss the times when we go play~~
Laughs~
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Thursday, June 19, 2008
School reopening..
My homework is still like a pile..
Laughs..
I think Brother Roland is killing me.
I still owe him homework.. The whole ten years series maths.. T-T
Uh.. Tomorrow going out with Nicholas and Qian~
Meeting Nicholas first. =P
Should be.. I go contact him..
Qian qian say cannot make him feel isolated..
Laughs*
Tomorrow also go East coast or Pasir Ris cycle~
Laughs*
Tomorrow de schedule so packed.! > <
I feel so tired.
Today do many many homework first!
T-T
It's all my fault to play whole day~~
I begin to love the feeling of staying at home~
Anyway.. Just now talked to Situ.
Zzz.. He pity on me.. Want to take me out for a movie..
Laughs.. Working in action country still want me to disturb him.
Mr.weird weird.
Sigh~
Why not take kids from orphanage to watch?
Since they had never been to movies. Laughs*
See first.. Maybe go.. Maybe not.
Got the feeling..
That guys' words.. not really that trustworthy either..
Listen and that's it. =)
Sorry..
Sigh..
Just now change to this song..
Nice song~
Living in the past is fine.
As long as I am taking the first time to walk out of it.
This is because
Yesterday is history
Today is a gift
Tomorrow is a mystery
That's why today is called present too.
Sunday go jamming..
Laughs*
To think I'm still playing.. =P
Nevertheless, I will work hard!
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让我们自由
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你不爱我了
我想我懂了
后来的沉默何时解脱
不知道是对是错
明明很爱你又不快乐
算了吧就放开手让你自由
也让我自由
两个人在一起
是那么靠近
拥抱着却隔着最远的距离
你还在我心里
怎么可以
我却成为你的过去
两个人在一起
解不开问题
走下去却看见寂寞的表情
是你太爱自己
我的眼睛全都是
都是你背影...
无奈的沉默何时解脱
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Monday, June 16, 2008
Laughs*
Sorry.. I was a little distracted.
Too sleepy.
Speaking to Qian on the phone now.
Actually.. Forget it..
And Winnie too..
If we have fate, we would meet no matter what..
It was just that I was played out.
I couldn't help you with anything.
I'm sorry..
I just got enlightened.
Guilty because I thought it was all because of me.
How great could I be to cause everything like this?
I am partly responsible.
But I have fulfilled.
Because I shouldn't be there.
I am gone too.
I left you peace.. =)
I'm sorry to have appeared in your life.
I am not wanted and not supposed to be there.
I'm so sorry that I existed in your life.
I should be gone.
No more lingers.
I don't love you anymore.
But history would repeat if you indulge in thing that is not meant to be yours.
No point regretting what is done either.
I'm so sorry.. So sorry that I'm there.
But.. I've forgiven myself.
I didn't do it intentionally.
Once I thought if I had never appeared, you would lead a better life.
In this lifetime, if we ever meet again, we would smile to each other I suppose.
Sorry.. But everything had really come to an end.. =
I just feel regretable that I was not able to help you get out of misery.
I'm so sorry..
I will make a wish for you still.
I know one day you will be freed..
One day.. Maybe you would know, once there was this girl in your life..
Who really love you truly from the bottom of her heart..
Till now, I would only wish..
The rest, I will forget..
No longer.. I won't fold stars in fast food again..
I'm an empty space in your memory.. Remember that.. =)
Bin hao.. Take care forever..
Erased memories.
Her tears fell like raindrops..
Cos' she has left her wishes.. Let go too..
I will miss you..
Always the best boyfriend ever..
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Incomplete!!!
Argh..
Don't want to continue this vicious cycle..
I'm tired already..
No more guilt..
I need to return you..
Hais..
Everytime I thought it is an end. But never. Sobs.
I will get over.
I went to have a nice basketball match..
There are gentlemen letting this lady shoot.~
I chopped too~!!
I'm so happy~
But tired.. Very..
This is because I did cooking, washing.. Too lethargic.
I think I will be thrown away..
I want to sleep.. lols.
I go sleep!!!!!!!
When I wake up tomorrow, I will be more energetic~
Tired.. Good night..
Sorry.. Sleepy blabber~ ;
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Sunday, June 15, 2008
Happy PAPA day~!!!
Aww tired..
Still ill.
My mummy made an ice lemon tea for me~
And she tied plaits for me~
She said, "Plaits goes curl, mummy's birthday is here."
Aren't my mummy cute??
LOVES her~<33
And my papa~
He cooked for us today, bought things for us..
But he has forgotten PAPA day~
HAPPY PAPA DAY~
I want to say.. I LOVE YOU, PAPA.. <33
I'm such a fortunate girl.
No one can get their parents to do so many things for them at this age.
Especially when I'm already 17..
I still have my mum tying plaits for me.
Girls nowadays don't really approve of hairstyle done by their mothers.
But I'm so proud that my mummy did!
Cos' she seemed to want to tie it nicely for me.
Just like the times when I was younger.
I had short hair since I became sec 3.
I believe, at that moment, she must be upset..
The long hair that she had kept for me was cut away.
I miss the way my mummy tie them up for me~
I love you~
My papa.. He used to buy food for us and whip us nice dishes~
And he did today too~!
Today is a wonderful day~!
He played with us and cook nice food for us..
I miss today~ lols~
My papa heard that I was coughing..
Like the times when I was young, he would worry..
He cycled to buy medicine and I coughed lesser.
And when we requested for sweets, he would buy them for us too~
I miss him giving me a ride to the market.~ =D
I once rejected his offer of giving me a ride..
Regret~ Now, I'm so heavy le.. How can he give me a ride?
Sigh..
Nevertheless.. Thank you papa!!!!
I love you!!!
Waa~~ tomorrow oral exam.. Actually I should be in the bed now..
Good luck lala~~
Cos' I got my parents, my good friends, I will score!! I love you!!
I'm a very fortunate girl in the world~ =D
MOST FORTUNATE GIRL IN THE WORLD, I SHOULD SAY~
LOVE YOU MAMA PAPA!!
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*laughs..
I went to Yew Tee for you the last time.
To think I place my I/C with you..
Sigh.. =(
Trust you.. Discard it for me..
I gave a cake..
2 letters..
Mr Tiny..
A bag full of stars..
A tie..
Back to you..
Well, I seemed to know you a lot.
But I think I know nothing..
I have placed my heart wrongly..
Nevertheless, I continued my mistake.
Now, time to go.
Still.. All that you've said was a lie..
Precisely, it was a bad dream after all.
Thank goodness, Qian was "there" to give me a hug and comfort after my dream..
She was by my bed, so I feared nothing.
"Erased" whatever bad dream I had~ LOLS.
Sigh.. You are such a silly guy..
Too devoted..
I wonder..if I could forget you too..
Everything has come to an end.
Time to let go too..
No wonder everyone said I was silly.
I find us nothing common..
The only thing is silly devotion..
Actually, thank you..
Thank you for your care and concern for the past 20 months..
Sorry too.. I failed my duty and failed to save you from misery too.
Cos' you chose your path..
I had to go..
Couldn't see my studies go into drain..
So.. HAHAS~
I got to go.
What's more..
I think I'm too selfish.. =/
Thinking about myself only..
Maybe one day..
My punishment for being the third party is dumped.
Laughs*
Something even more funny was, I didn't even know I became the third party.
How can a sunshine girl go down?
I smile everytime~
So.. DECIDED!
I want to be happy.
So.. I got to leave you..
Anyway.. I'm not needed in your life too. = redundant.
As long as I have a brand new life~
HAHAHA~~
This is my last post to you..
Soon, I'll change Address, I suppose..
Please take care..
The only thing I worry about is how badly you took care of yourself..
Sigh..
Stay happy..
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Saturday, June 14, 2008
I've been coughing.
Sigh.
Feeling nauseous and dizzy.
Tired. It doesn't feel good to be sick..
It's getting a little worse.
Maybe I'll sleep earlier..
Tomorrow, I need to go somewhere though.
So I think I need ample rest.
I think I don't wish to cause any trouble to you anymore.
I'll just leave it at your door.. Then sms you after that.
I hope my health don't fail me.
Gosh..
No one approves of me to care for you.
You don't wish to either.
I'm forsaken..anyway.
I should have given up. This is what everyone told me.
Now, I know what I should do.
Despite the separation of 8 months, I still believe in you.
In the past, now or future, I will.
Just, I couldn't bring myself to witness a girl by you.
And I realised that I couldn't be your guardian.
I failed to..
Sigh..
You must take care..
Cos' I wouldn't see how you will be like in future.
I still have not done my ten years series..Sobs..
Need to work harder.
Monday is English Prelim Oral Examination already.
Sigh..
Don't give me away.. I need to score. ='(
End here..
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Friday, June 13, 2008
BACKED~
Aww.. I'm totally lethargic..
Gosh.. I was in a haunted bungalow.
Laughs*
We felt something.
Saw something too..
If only adults are there.. HAHAs..*
Zzz.. But the stars there were nice!!
I saw STARFISH..and that doodle of mine~
So fun..
Aww. Very tired.. Hahas..
I think I'm tired.
Hahas.. Aiya.. Everyone too tired.
But I won't forget~
Mummy.. Happy birthday.. =)
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Thursday, June 12, 2008
I am so happy..
Going to Pasir Ris chalet later.
*laughs.
Go swimming. Or rather, play water.
Yeah.. Another attitude le~!
Think we are going to party there.
But then, still in the midst of persuasion..
My mum refused to go.
But we are going to celebrate her birthday. =P
Aiyo. How???
Sigh..aren't you living well?
Why do you still..?
Take care will you?
I'll be killing you if you go on!
Tell you arhs!! I'll turn violent if you continue.!
Idiot lahs!!
On the 15 then you know.
You are down for lecture!
Hmm..! Say I'm unreasonable, so be it!!
Sigh..
Aiya.. Going off liaos.~ =)
Bye bye~~
PLAY WATER!
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Tuesday, June 10, 2008
What the..
I fell sick..
Vomit blah blah blah out. Whatever I eat.
Idiot..
Still feel queasy in the stomach.
It's gastritis acting up again I supposed.
Hardly like that..
Fever and sore throat some more.
Idiot.. What happened huh..
Is it that food court's food has problem or..?
Anyway.. I'm so disobedient.
I was supposed to rest at home.
I went out with sister, brothers and Shu Qing to KTV.
Don't scold me.~!!
In the morning, I was really resting.!!
But then afternoon, my sister told me to come along.
So, cannot blame.
Wow.. I didn't know Shu Qing can sing as good as a singer. O.o
Shocking.
Laugh*
With natural sore throat, I still sing.
It was fine at first; until I sing "Bei Ai De Nu Ren"
Out of tune until~~~ My sister threw up the water that she was drinking. x)
They find me going quite crazy actually.
I felt so too.
Good place to vent out frustration. =P
We sang some high songs.. Before we had our dinner..
Aww. The food there is "superb"!
Cold chicken. Warm soup. Warm rice..
Don't think is very hygienic too..
Zzz.
No choice~ T-T
We had a cup of cold bubble tea.
Hey~ The bubble tea is nice. $1 only eh.
Taste really nice.
We had a deal; to buy the tea from that shop the next time we visit the KTV.
And I went home..
Last night, threw up 3 times.
I was only able to sleep at 3.30am.
Woke up at 8.30am.
5 hours only.. T-T
Thank goodness, quite cooperative.
I didn't have fever.
But stomach is still upset.
Coughing for the whole morning too..
Lungs hurt.
Never mind.
I am strong. Will be fine very soon~
Rest more bas.
Today still have to work out my color scheme.
I shall start my Final soon.
Tomorrow.
All my agenda is planned.
I still has the math ten years series to complete by June.
Cos' I have got 2 books. T-T
So pathetic. T-T
I'm sick yet can't rest well. T-T
Work hard!!!! I can do it!!
Show you something..
What's with that expression..?? -_-"
My brother singing.
ShuQing emo.
Why my eyes so small, don't ask me.
Beike took the photo.
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Monday, June 9, 2008
Sometimes, I wish I never knew you.
But without you, I wouldn't have known what is that love of happiness.
Now, I promise.
This time I will keep my promise.
"I will not see your blog again."
"I will not see you anymore."
"I will not sms you"
"I will not talk to you in msn unnecessarily."
Well, I don't have anything to talk to you anymore either.
Thank you for providing me happiness.
Sometimes, I think I am too mean.
But.. This..selfish me..wished to protect myself.
I don't want to get hurt again.
So, I don't want to see you again.
Let fate decide.
I guess, we will never see each other for this lifetime anymore.
Because we never meet..
Or rather, we always walked passed each other but never knew each other's presence at all.
One in the west. Another in the East.
I doubt we have such fate to meet too.
I rather we have jet time difference and never meet on msn.
That shall be the last time I see you..
Really..Thank you for everything.
I wish to say thank you personally too..
But..I wish you happiness.
Cos' you have found someone you love. =)
I..wish to disappear from this place where I don't belong.
My heart spoke. This is something I can't control.
You can't hear. You covered them.
Some how, I lost the ability to cry too.
I wanted to. But I can't. Maybe I know it is quite pointless.
I am super gullible.
How would I believe in this trap again?
Never mind. I doubt I will fell into it again.
Shutting myself away from you.
I think friendships are much more true than relationship.
Wait till I get happier.
I think I will live better. =)
Everything is fine..
As long as you're happy.
Still, I don't wish to appear in your life anymore.
Not going to let you feel that you have hurt another person.
Cos' I'm living happier like you..
So you will never know how I am like now..
Now, I'm absolutely convinced.
I won't like you anymore.. I will do it.
Smile on..
Actually, as long as people around me is happy..
I will be happy..
This is my last message to you.. I suppose..
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Saturday, June 7, 2008
It's 2am..
Insomnia?
Perhaps.
I've just became the full circle panda.
Lols.
I am going to sleep.
Schedule is like that tomorrow.
Meet Qian till 12pm.
Back home, do arts till 4pm.
Then maths. Hopefully more than 30 questions.
Maybe work till 7pm.
Then the rest do English?
Complete my English and no fret.
The rest of the time, Maybe from 11pm onwards, Pack my room again.
Sigh.. So much to do.
I just finished the stars..
Fingers hurts a little though.
Just like playing guitar..
It's always on my own part of wishing.
This is the second time, but the last time.
Qian returning the tie.. so do I.
No more.. I don't know how to fall in love..
Sigh.. messages received.
Maybe, reply tomorrow..
No mood for today.
*I say: Every morning when you smile to yourself at least 10 times in the mirror, your day should be brightened.
I had tried that.
Maybe these day I didn't. LOLS. I will.
Sleep liaos. Good night!
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Friday, June 6, 2008
*laughs~
Life is more than love.
I think, I survived because of love.
-Because everyone showered me with love; that's why I feel so happy.
Ever so happy.
What you have provided is just a little more..
Cos' I yearned for yours.
No wonder people says, Friendship are always better than love.
However, why should I show I'm weak.?
*I just need to convince myself that I don't need you anymore.
Once I did.
Fine..
Surprise will still go on..
That will be the last too.
The last time that I'll be seeing you.
Not because of anything. But because we would hardly see each other.
No fate maybe; maybe for this lifetime, we will never see each other again.
However, I'll FORGET your love.
Cos' it is illusion.
What I thought was true was just virtual.
Can you imagine, I had been dreaming for 1 year plus.
I am fated to forget you within 7 months.
No point.
I don't love you anymore.
The more I should return what is supposed to be yours.
Now, I believe.
Love may not last forever.. Not your love definitely.
What am I looking for then?
I wonder..
Maybe.. I am looking for..
Friendship. That kind of love.
Kinship. That love.
That is maybe what I need.
1 person on earth can't make himself/herself happy.
It takes at least 2 people to do that.
Even if it is just a company.
Animals will do. Just one more company.
Companionship.
Time to move on.
Honestly, you worth too much.
I don't worth you at all.
Well, everyone got it right again. =P
I'm always so stubborn.
Like to experience things in different way.
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Thank you for your advice again.
Should I consider it, a trauma?
Right, Jia Xian.
You got them all right.
All memories should leave it as it is.
No matter how I missed it, how much I love you even now.
What's gone is gone.
Hyde got them clearer.
Since you have given up, why should I continue to love you.?
Why do I not understand all your hidden messages until now.?
I was left with no time to cherish at all.
No point being sad anymore.
I cannot blame anyone.
So what if I cry my eyes out?
So what if I go blind.?
So what if I love you?
So what if he whom you think has never existed?
So what if everything has become virtual.?
Life is a dream.
Cos' I dreamed of you.
You completed my life.
So it ends too.
I woke up.
No one can replace.
Even if I get into another relationship.. No one.
The things done together was beyond what a couple would really care and do at this age.
Leave it as a memory.
Hold my vision strong and achieve what I should.
Time to go..
Time to go..
I have something important to say, Hyde.
Wait till I see you..
Breathing also feels the pain.
A touch even does.
Not enough.
I want to say..
I can't see the rainbow anymore, so your eyes, look at them for me.
Cos' we see them together.
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[Song 50.]
Rules of the game: Remove one question from below, add in one of your own (personal), to make a total of 20. Tag 10 people in your list in the end of this post. Notify them.
1. At what age do you wish to be married?
- 28/29
2. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 buddies you'd take and why?
Qianyong- She is good listener, Winnie-She is a sweet girl and Jessie-She is thoughtful.
I doubt I'll be bored without them. Grow old together.
3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Japan
4. If you can have 1 dream come true, what would it be?
World peace
5. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Maybe.
6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
friends and family.
7. If you win $ 1 Million, what would you do?
Donate most. Leftovers, parents.
8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
......probably
9. One bad point the person who tagged you has got?
Hmm. I doubt he has.
10. Is everything possible to you?
i'm.possible
11. What kind of person do you hate the most?
Jerks. What you can think of.
12. If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?
Definitely.
13. Any wisdom to share with your readers?
Cherish while you can bas.
14. If there's ever a war(or things that are similar) happening in your place, are you going to move to a safer place, or fight?
fight.
15. If you have the chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
That childish me.
16. What would you do if it is end of the world?
I want to see you once more.
17. what do you think the most stupid thing humans may get to?
learn how to cherish something after it's lost.
18. What does love means to you?
Inside one.
19. Do you believe in forever love?
I do.
20. When a couple have broke up, will they be back again?
I believe. If they love each other.
*10 people you tagged to do ?
SMILE to everyone.
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Homed.
I'm not contented.
Sigh.
You let me go and have fun.
The moment I reached home, you blamed me.
Have I done wrong?
I really didn't enjoy myself.
Juniors had fun, Qian had fun, Devien, Fionna too.
But me.
I'm dragged from for specs.
Forced to go somewhere I don't wish to.
Blame for my disobedience.
Later I go play basketball.
How I wish I could stroll..
I thought I could have fun.
Who knows I'm tied down.
Didn't I told you that I said I wanted to go out.?
Why is it always like that?
That you have to place all your sudden plan under my schedule and time.
In the end, I don't oblige you, you ignore me.
I can't even go with Qian.
Sigh..
I'm not contented.
Even if it takes me to go town..
I'm not contented.
I really don't like it.
Today's so ruined.
I think I shall go out tomorrow myself.
Some what, do what I should.
Well, I'm soon alone too.
Will be like this too.
I am too.
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Thursday, June 5, 2008
Oh.. Change plan..
Go bowling and watch movie.
Laughs.
Today still need to rush back for making my specs.
Sigh.
Can My eye sight broom~ back to the same?
Now maybe I know why..
I realized, I had cried almost everyday since November
Lesser when it's in February..
Till now, I occasionally do.
So.. I cried till my eyes goes dead.
Like that.. I think my eyes are dead.
Poor eyes has such bad owner.
Idiot me.
Half daybreak.
A glimpse of hope.
No one sees it perhaps.
I am.. ******* go.
I know how much you did.
I am the one.. not worthy.
Do I still have the stand to stay?
No.
I wish I wish..
If you are happy..
I should be contented.
So I won't feel so guilty towards you.
All I can say is thank you.
It only can be a memory of the past.
I thought long.
I'm not worth of you.
It's never opposite.
Missing the same smile,
Same look.
That you.
Could you..smile again.?
Doubt I'll be dropping off at that point soon.
I was the most fortunate girl.
Elf - Lin Jun Jie's song.
Some what speaks the left, the red thumping..
I miss you too much
I stayed in your heart
Because I got to know you, like a fantasy game
I kept thinking of your looks and your thinkings
Vaguely imagining seeing you
Walking with you
This love.
(abstract some)
I am going to movie's with juniors.
Laughs.
So maybe tomorrow update or..Don't know.
Going to be fun.
Do you know..
I was looking for someone on the streets always.
Going out!!
I'M LATE!!
Still.. I'm living asleep.
Shattering my own dream.
I finally.. decided to buy and continue making stars.
How I wish..I really.. misses.
Stronger each time, the more I know I should leave.
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I'm talking to QianHui.
Heh.
Anyway, going out later.
To get my form.
Then to get the tie.
AND most importantly, SEE my QIAN~
*laughs.
So fun..
Like Jessie's company.
Winnie's and Qian's too..
Tired.
Still got a lot to complete.
I saw Uncle ME.. *laugh
He is the cutest boy I have ever seen!!
He is Jeremy.
Everyone calls him uncle Me.
Qian's cousin~
And her young girl cousins.
All in the age of below 12.
Ah.. So things still goes smoothly.
I talked to Jia xian just now.
Finally..
Someone approve of why I l_v_ you this deep.
Heh..
Ah. Idiot.
I almost cried in front of Jiaxian.
He still say must remember. ZZZ.
Worst thing is.. Everyone saw.. T-T
Zhiyong, Elroy, Wenbin, Aloy, they were strolling!!
Shit.. Some more, only JiaXian and I.. Rumors!!!
Jia xian is a very good friend..
Not that kind~~ T-T
I think I am in for trouble.
Tired.
I gave one star to uncle me cos' he cried.
Poor thing.. Run and hit the shelves.
Baluku liaos.
I wish I could give him a hug so he will stop crying.
But he stop when I smile~! And a star as a gift. *laughs.
Yeah.!! More stars.
Tired arhs..
Taking my 10 years series everywhere to study.
Somehow..
I know..how much you mean..
Don't know what Issac is thinking.
He said he was sad to see me and Jiaxian eating together.
A bit crazy.
But.. Nothing is going on.
Cos' we both lingers memories.
"Just remember that he is someone whom once loved you so deeply and you need to move on"
But..
Can I not.?
I need to go help Qian liao.
Write again.
Tomorrow going out with my juniors.
ICE-SKATE~ Hahas.
Forgetting something which is once so precious to you.
Can we.?
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Wednesday, June 4, 2008
YEAH!
I'm in SP using their internet! LOLS.
Using Jessie's computer too.
LOLS.
She's so cute la~
We just had our lunch.
In KFC.
SP looked like a series of provision..
Got so many shops.
Still got E mei shan, Shao Ling Si.
Got travel overseas' centre, Game shops, Pizza hut, many many hawker centre.
LOLS.. HOW COME MY SCHOOL DON'T HAVE??!!
We are in the library now..
Zzz.. Jessie keep laughing, saying that my face will go saggy if I keep touching it.. SOBS.
Later meeting Qian.
I LOVE JESSIE!
Anyway, Got that snoopy for her.
Getting my specs done on friday..
By the way, I become the singer for a band lehs!!!
Waa.. So fun.
Maybe I go SP with Jessie. LOLS
Stella is so fickle.!
Jessie got so many jokes.
She's so funny. I laugh, she laugh.
Hahas.. I think I will be laughing until I bid byebye.!
OH my!
Final still haven't do.
Teacher is killing me soon. T-T
Got to wait until the next time I post.
Don't know when.
Aiyo, So dead!
Thought Qian don't need tie liao.
Waa. Dead. Think have to wait longer liao.
If so, Next meeting shall be, another 15.
Sorry!!! Confirm with Qian soon.
Feel so bad.
Said 1000 times of I love you, you still don't understand.
The song.
Oh.. Made only 50 stars..SOBS.
So inferior. LOL
JIAYOU!
So many to do. So little time.
Yearned to call you once more.
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Monday, June 2, 2008
Listen hard.
Laughs*
Aww. Going to sleep soon.
So tired. Turning like a pig. xp
I had my chemistry practical.
No energy.
Sorry Fion~
Laugh*
I poured the chemical on her paper accidentally.
I was really too tired.
Getting class tee soon!
$35 though. Lols.
But I supposed it is going to be quite cool~
Adidas.. Laughs!
Money is prepared.
Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUENYONG!
Laughs.
So rare! See, Chuenyong must cherish a junior like me.
Remember his birthday so vividly.
Surprisingly, I remember his number in mind that I don't have to look for contacts too.
xp Well, that's a secondary 2 secret. Not telling you. =p
Enjoy your day! Work hard for your projects too!
Angela comforted me..
Lols. She's so innocent.
Telling me I have pillow to be my boyfriend.
Aren't she cute.?
I wish..at times..
Later I go play basketball.
Finally, I know how to do a lay up.
I have just written a letter.
Laughs. A star each day keeps me occupied away.
Yeah. So tired again.
Wanted to say so much..
But words are too much inside.
I have lost my skills of expression.
Hear this..
Say well, that's all I need.
Some things, I could only leave it as it is.
A penny for your thoughts?
Nevertheless, we are still friends.
Just a distance away.
May not see you again.
But still could chat.
One day tell me how you are.
Still..I couldn't get out of this dream.
How I wish I had bad dream.
So I would feel lucky that it is only a dream.
So, I wouldn't feel like sleeping.
I am living asleep.
Some things are too good to be true.
Virtual or real?
I'm going to prepare something.
My last surprise for you too..
Waiting for that day..
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Sunday, June 1, 2008
Laughs.*
Finally can use internet.
Tired. These day slacked around.
Feel like doing some work.. SOBS.
Absolutely forgotten my aim.
Cos' my room is too messy for one to stay in.
I got too many photos to show. Sigh.. Maybe one day. =)
Hais.. I got Myopia.
Idiot.
Don't like to wear specs.
Left around 52, Right 75 to 100.
Still has San guang.
Nevertheless, for "o"level, I endure.
Waa. Use computer stress my eyes.
Too bright.
Tomorrow has chemistry practical.
4 June visiting Jessie~
I miss her so much~!
And getting back the tie.
Returning you.
Along with others. =)
Actually, I have so much to say.
But so little time.
So the rest, I shall leave it as it is.
Those are too unimportant.
Leaving.
Doubt will continue talking to you except internet contacts.
No reasons to find you anymore.
So, do take care.
21 June going for movie appreciation with Qian.
Aww. She's leaving soon.
Coming back too!
So I may go jjc with her.
Chiong studies.
Besides, I want to get into U.
Poly maybe.
Still confused.
Seeing every single stars made, there's a mission for every too.
They carried wishes.
To be fulfilled and will.
You never knew. Soon you will.
Buried memories.
Leave it to the past, Find future happiness~ =)
Thus, stay very happy.
I know her presence too..
In anyway, I won't leave you in hesitation.
Destined to..
Smile o!
Or I'll come after you with hammer.
15 is last day too..
I'll miss you.
.'. Rain falls, I can no longer differentiate whether it is rain or tears.
As long as you smile. Gain happiness. Not any other thing matters.
I am as strong as before. Still that immature, playful, childish girl that you knew.
The sky has changed~
Aww. Can't get to sleep. 2 hours of sleep. What happened? Idiot.
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