______Here Comes MICKEY`!

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Gosh..
Moving my room..
Super tired.
Going to sleep soon.
So I briefly tell you what happened today?

I went to see my principal.
But to feedback.
Oh.. Got to say, I have got a weird yet interesting security guard in my school.
He likes to talk to girls.
Then talk weird things to girls.
Worst, he disturbed us and invaded our privacy.

When my principal heard that, his eyes seemed to have popped out..
Done for.. T-T
I don't want to cause people to get sacked. T-T
But principal gave me that feeling, "He is done for.."

Sigh.. Worst, I have caused Teng to be involved into this mess too..
I'm so dead.
Laughs* At this kind of moment, LAUGH as much as I can..just before I had to cry..

Anyway, I was a little quiet today..
Thank goodness Hui Juan came along and I managed to get you off my mind for that split second.
Lots of navy men walked passed me.
My heart thumped really hard.
"Could you be one of them inside?"

Then, I looked down and let go of that on hold breath.
Cos' it is time to go. =p

Another star was made.
"Take care."

Ahh.. Need some rest..
Thanks Joseph.
Help me find the song~ Lols.
"Sunny day"

Squeaks` @* 7:43 AM

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Monday, May 26, 2008

A perfect family outing!
I went out with everyone except for my eldest brother.
But then woke up at such..7am time..
Tired.. That last night I went to bed at 2am. T-T

First stop: Discovery Center.
That was like a movie ticket's price.. O.o
$10 per person.. Quite worth..
By the way, it's a family TREAT. *laughs.

We went to discovery center play all the games..
Actually quite fun.~ =P
Play that questionnaire with my brother. laughs*
Show you photo sometime later.

Well, that's actually somewhat a historical tour, I suppose..
Telling us about the history of Singapore.
Sigh.. I missed the Mr Brown's talks.
Laughs*

Whatever National servicemen?
*laughs.

Second stop: Seoul Garden.
Waa.. I didn't know I am a glutton too..
I finished 2 to 3 bowls of food and a cup of lemon tea, a scoop of ice-cream.
Cool.. Some what a steamboat. Nice.

My family was like bloated except for me.. =x

Third stop: Haw Par Villa.
Cool..
We went to see all sights.
The hell and everything.

Enjoyed most?
The wishing well..
I made wishes for many people.
Right..

Then home.. for 30 minutes?

Last stop: Macdonalds.
Sigh.. This is where I chiong.
Laughs.
I wonder.. Can I get into JC?

Still wait till my result is out, then I'll decide.

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Gosh.. Jiejie persuade me to go for an optical test.

Cos' I had double vision on the right eye.
Eee.. I don't want specs.

Laughs. That's like..myopia.
Sigh.. Maybe got to make sacrificial to O levels.
Mid year see double line for perpendicular bisector once.
Can't afford to make another mistake.

Sigh.. I will check..

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Yeah~ Just now go basketball..
Laughs..
I suppose that I have improved for lay up~? yeah~
Laughs.
So happy..

Thanks jiejie, for treating me~ =)
Waa, expensive..
Laughs..
I got supports.
I know I can do it.. =)

Squeaks` @* 2:11 AM

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Ah yes!!!
Completed one head aching paper.
If it goes smoothly, I should be able to get my A1..
=D

Chinese over lo~! Throwing my graduating hat~
No la~ I am thinking a bit too far..
So.. I am leaving my target not far.
Well.. That's a hooray.~
Stella got happy so easily.

Anyway, I placed a bet with my mum.
If I score 10 points, she will treat me ice-cream~!!!

In recent, I am an ice-cream fanatic. Don't blame me~ xp
Hee.. Roland gorgor treat me Sundae.. *laughs.
So it's Sundae power that made me score?
Thanks gorgor~

So next target.. Attacking into Mathematics..
To complete Ten Years Series Maths by June.
Cool.

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Now, I think I need to work.
Help my mummy.
A little tired is fine.
As long as it is within my capability of handling my work,
I will help.

So tired.
I did a whole day trip around West part of Singapore yesterday.. -_-"
Another 4 hours of continuous study.

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Good to see you no longer getting "emotional".
I can rest at ease.

I presume, I can leave smiling..
A way to let you lead your own life..
The life without my existence.

Knowing what is love.
Yeah, that is love.

"Your smile is the most comforting expression for me."
"A sense of..happiness that you have given."
"the very last one too."

I just knew.. I was making many stars..
Many wishes.. to come true.
One has came true.
Smile on. =D

Squeaks` @* 1:41 AM

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Saturday, May 24, 2008

*laugh~
I went out with Qian again!
Right, again..

Laugh..
Tell you to laugh, why are you not laughing!
*silly.

Anyway, I went to Marina Square.
This is the first time I am there too.
For..? BOWLING!
Aww.. thumb Blue black~ ='(

Firstly, Isabella and Qian fetched me.
I was quite lost.
Laughs..
Qian was shocked that he had never brought me there.
Yeah!! Isabella eh!
Also a friend from JJ..
Sadly, I was not up to mood to switch into hyperactive.
I fear Isabella will think I don't enjoy her company when I did and that's a lot.

Well, She love pikachu. Laughs.
Aren't she cute?
I got an urge to give her a big tight hug~
Laughs.

I am known for all stunts.. =)
Kick the ball, throw, check that ball don't go into drain, roll it..
I have it, you name it.
Laughs.. Everyone laugh like.. LAUGHS
The sensor also lousy.. Let me throw so many times.. =P

Then we had dinner at an unknown restaurant.
Laughs. Expensive.. =/
I ate 2 pizzas, a bit of salad..
Qian treated.. Sobs.. Always people treat me.
I don't even dare to eat much.
Thanks Qian..~
Lala love you.

Then we went to esplanade.
A place that memory was replaced..
I begin to wonder.. To rejoice? Or a pity?
Anyway~ Yulun, Yuhan, Yuzhuang, shuting, and more.
Laughs.
Yulun is very cute. He is a 18 years old looked like but 22 years old brother.
Cos' I teamed with him for bowling.?
He was amused by my stunts -_-"

There was people playing guitar too.. Isn't that cool?
The mirror-like building reflected the fireworks.
If only we could see them.. sigh.
The music guessing too.
Sigh, I know too little.. T-T

Nevertheless, I love them all~!
Yunxi? Right?
She's so cute~
Demure and gentle girl..
We took pictures too~

In the end, we really had great fun.
I am the entertaining person. =)

Thank you shuting!
For listening to my thoughts..

Last but not least, My Qian~
I accompanied her down her flat..
And she hear me too..
We went to buy food then go home.

Today is a nice day.
Laughs.
The sky is clear and I could see the stars.
I still wish upon for everyone.

I dreamt of you.
I dreamt of separation.
Your eyes..expressing something so..indescribable.
Well, I cried.
Cos' I dreamt Qian left me.
Sigh.. Winnie, Jessie and Qian mean so much to me..
If they leave me, I will cry.

I was living like I was asleep
I was always alone
Until the day I met you
I was always, always here

If I had put on a mask
Then I felt I might have forgotten
I shut away my memories
And locked them in a box

Even in that dark place
I was able to find you
Even if I can’t return
I’ll keep going farther, farther

Even if there’s a love song
That recalls loneliness
I can’t reach it alone
So I’ll walk out once more
Toward the door to tomorrow
With you…

I’ll transform sadness
Into kindness
And someday
Once I’ve set my true self free
The pain will disappear
I know it

I don’t need a love song
I can sing by myself anymore
I can’t find it alone
But with you I know
We can find a place where the sun shines
A tomorrow I’ve never seen

So I decided to..

Cos' I don't even fit to stand by you..
I never do.

A wish that will go on..

Still.. I love the sky.
The more I love Sunny day.
Sing with all my heart.

Squeaks` @* 9:56 AM

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Thursday, May 22, 2008

Sunny day

What spilled out

Wasn’t a tear but a praying voice
What I looked up at
Was the sun above the clouds

I was living like I was asleep
I was always alone
Until the day I met you
I was always, always here

Even if there’s a love song
I could sing by myself
This warmth from the touch of your arms
Can’t be found alone

If I had put on a mask
Then I felt I might have forgotten
I shut away my memories
And locked them in a box

Even in that dark place
I was able to find you
Even if I can’t return
I’ll keep going farther, farther

Even if there’s a love song
That recalls loneliness
I can’t reach it alone
So I’ll walk out once more
Toward the door to tomorrow
With you…

I’ll transform sadness
Into kindness
And someday
Once I’ve set my true self free
The pain will disappear
I know it

I don’t need a love song
I can sing by myself anymore
I can’t find it alone
But with you I know
We can find a place where the sun shines
A tomorrow I’ve never seen

Taken from weiying'z blog.
This is an anonymous.

Squeaks` @* 12:23 AM

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Wednesday, May 21, 2008

*Laugh..
What an annual cross country.
Well, so weird. Someone with such short legs get in 6th position.
Sigh.. I want trophy~~ T-T xp

6/2= 3rd
So it means I am 2 times faster, I can get it.. =P

Something glad was H.W, a friend of mine..
Somewhat touched.
Cause' I don't really talk to her. Kind of fear her. =p
Because whenever I start conversation with her, I would say something wrong.
Which I know or may never know.
T-T scary.

We took a picture~ =)
Shall show one day? =p

Anyway, I didn't expect a friend to call and tell me a big secret..
Sigh..
So this person sees me like this.

Well, not to blame. Maybe it's my fault.
Well, this is infatuation, a crush.
Not love.. *laugh.
Don't get mistaken.
Get this right~ This is for 2 people out of my reach.
Finally solve a mystery that goes on for 2 years.

Going for night study again..
Don't blame me if I didn't post any entry~ =p
Cos' my O level Chinese starts this Monday.
It is quite expected that I will be updating less and less.
=P
My 10 points. Never forgotten.

Oh.. That's a translation from me. Happiness.
Think quite true. A pity not detailed.

Sky.. still miss it.
The moon is bright, round and it represents nothing. Just moon.
Ever since night study, I have been watching the sky.
Night. Recently, the sky also became especially pale blue. mm. Clouds?

Sunny day is the reason for my post.
Cos' I want to listen to it.

Squeaks` @* 11:42 PM

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Happiness is not a myth.
But million people would have million of answers.
Happiness has unlimited types.
If you take others happiness as an example, you aren't going to get any answer.

To convince yourself is a success in mentality.
To move yourself is an improvement in spiritual.
To conquer yourself is maturity.
If these are the three things that you have accomplished, you would be happy.

Happiness is unable to be measure through financial means.
Someone who possess everything that people envy may not be the happiest person.
Yet someone without anything that people might not notice may not be the most unhappy person.
Happiness is not deprive of through financial means.

Someone with power in hand may look happy but there are hidden sacrificial and left without choice.
Someone who falls from his striving business, someone who fails in his education, someone who falls from their highest point in life, may not be deprive of happiness forever.

Happiness is unable to be measured through means of succession.
Most probably, deep in a successful person's heart, there is loneliness.
Loneliness has difficulties to gain happiness.

The most unhappy person is one who worries everyday without peace, lose self by demanding things in life.
Happiness is not to think of what we lack of.
But to cherish what we have gained now.

Happiness is an experience, an understanding, a scene in heart, a feeling, is a happy moment, is a life of compromise.
It can be a breakfast in sunny morning, an afternoon after snow, etc...
If a person can't find happiness here, they probably won't find it.
Happiness is simplicity.
It slowly blooms, quietly comes, a not noticeable flower.

Happiness and misery is a twin.
That is why happy people sings with tears
And sad people tear with songs.

-By teachers-

Squeaks` @* 2:49 AM

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Monday, May 19, 2008

Dropping off at every point.
But any words that relates to you,
I will start pondering.

Rest assured.
I won't become the girl who make you feel like a nuisance that you need to escape.
I won't be contacting or initiate anymore.
Because I don't see myself there..

As long as you're happy..
I prayed..for all and you.
That no matter what happens, as long as you're happy and safe,
Whoever is by your side doesn't matter, right?

I'm now on a snapping rope.
After crossing, it will definitely snap off.
There is no room for heavy and bulky things like me.. =P
But I am absolutely fine with it. =)

Now, as long as you are happy..
As long as you are happy.
Not contacting you is okay.
Not seeing you is okay.
Not hearing from you is okay.

Slowly, you will forget me.. =)
That's okay too..
As long as you are happy.
I'll just pray to the stars for you..

I am not loving anyone anymore..
An angel who stood by is enough..
So forever stay happy.

One day, I will stop loving.
One day, I will remember and place everything back where it is.
By then, it will be the end of my time. =)

Time to go sleep..
Too tired..

As long as you are happy..
I am willing to do anything for you.

Squeaks` @* 12:49 AM

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I just got back from a trip..
What a tiring night..
T-T 3pm then reach..

I dozed off at every comfortable position.
That's so rude of me. =p
Qian qian! *laughs..
I went out with her..

Actually we went out in the dawn.
Then I saw a brightest star.
Can you imagine a girl turning rounds on the middle of the road, smiling to herself.?
This was what I did..
And the passer-by think I was crazy.
Some ghost or something. -_-"

Sigh..
I caused Qian to suffer.. Sorry..

Ya~~!! We accomplish a perfect task..
We were watered like plants~ Heh. It is a bliss..
And we went to do voluntary work.
Help people and listen.

Today is a nice day~
Sky were clear though it is a little too warm.

I feel quite bad..
My brother say his computer lagged because I blogged.
I just rebutted saying that I should the one be making way~ =/
Sorry..
I'll be done very soon. =p

Sigh.. I can't divulge much.. But today is really happy. =)

Squeaks` @* 12:39 AM

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Sunday, May 18, 2008

I am going out with Qian.
Coming back tomorrow morning. Heh..

I am forgetting.

Memories if like a reader
Using an accent of home
Over a a drain Over a village
Waiting for fate to meet

You used mud to make a city
And said to marry me in future
Turn many rounds Cross many doors
A youth that has passed.

The small promise isn't stable
The small tears is holding on
The lip of young is conveying separation

From then on, there is someone who lives in my heart
The children who once looked young.
That year you prepared a small stage
Was mesmerised by shows I followed.

I am looking for the person in the story
You are a lead whom can't be missed out.
Under a tree, you are doing stunts
The diminished me was silly waiting.

Memories if like a reader
Using an accent of home
Over a a drain Over a village
Waiting for fate to meet

You used mud to make a city
And said to marry me in future
Turn many rounds Cross many doors
A youth that has passed.

Small gratefulness Rain falls
Small truants Made others dote on
Small people doesn't know kisses

From then on, there is someone who lives in my heart
The children who once looked young.
That year you prepared a small stage
Was mesmerised by shows I followed.

I am looking for the person in the story
You are a lead whom can't be missed out.
Under a tree, you are doing stunts
The diminished me was silly waiting.

From then on, there is someone who lives in my heart
The children who once looked young.
Then learning from other to read scripts.
Your lost teeth made you inaccurate in pronunciation.

I am looking for the person in the story
You are a lead whom can't be missed out.
Small hand holding small people's hand.
Protecting that smallest eternity

Bad translation xp

Squeaks` @* 3:16 AM

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This is eric..
He said that I am a kid.

Shiwen jiejie and Eric xp

Sun set or sun rise.?
A path to go.

The moon I was searching.
But never another with star so close.

The sky I took.. Sun is.. setting very soon.

A place to remember.

The way I guide you and found you..

Smile.

The eyes..conveyed..

The wind blows.
There is no meaning behind those cries.

Do I look like a pig now?

AH~~ PIGGY LALA..

Squeaks` @* 2:35 AM

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I went out alone yesterday.
Where I have went?

I went to library to return my book.
And then to Plaza Singapura.
I just wanted to catch Accuracy of death..alone.

Then.. As I bought, I went to window shop.
First stop: A teddy bear shop.
I saw a lot of bears..and children.
There was a child who is buying a bear..
The staff was a kind and patient lady..
She spoke to the child in a very friendly and close manner.
Just reminded me how I was treated when I was young.
The older brothers and sisters treat me. =)

Second stop: gift shop..
The Cushion..has changed.
So I just look around..
Bears, stationary and others.

Third stop: Times bookshop.
This is a stop that I would definitely go.
I read a book after another book..

I am hoping to find a book..that say a story of romance yet only memories.
But then improvement books too.
!!! I saw a book that teaches people to trick women.. Zzz.
Now I know what I can do.. Zzz..

But the most memories was..a time to remember.
*laughs. I never fails to stay in this bookshop for hours.
I think I stayed for.. 1 hour and a half.

The third stop: Mcdonalds
Cos' I finally realised that I am hungry.
So I bought an ice-cream and fries.
*laughs. Yesterday, the seats were so full.
Thank goodness I found myself a seat.

Then while having my fries, I saw people without seats.
There were a family who share seat with me.
Well, alone.
So it is so easy to do that. =)
So does my movie ticket, I got a nice seat too. =P

Never forgets my star.. I folded another..
This time, I make a star that pains my fingers like this guitar does.
A habit that I can never forget.

Fourth stop: Arcade.
The first place I stop before I go Plaza too.
Dhoby Ghaut's arcade.
There was a pretty good shooter. =)

I just watched.. well..if I can too.
I changed to the token and shoot..
*laugh.
Not enough strength.
But good enough for a beginner.
I went to the second stage before I flunked.

Next moment, I stepped out.

Fifth stop: Time for movie.
I stood at the railing.
Watched the sky.. and the people below..

Time's up.
Went in..

Is this a comedy?
I expected to cry.
Not fated to cry. Cos' I don't have anymore tears to do that.

A talking dog.
Many shinigami(s)

So shinigami was guiding her through her life.
What about me..?
Am I once judged?
Maybe..
You could take me away.
I don't think I have anything left to reminisce.. =/

Shinigami..god of death..
*laughs..
I think I always like movies that has shinigami. =p

Sixth stop: Cathay
Ask me why?
I remembered, no one in a busy city stops by to view the scenery.
So I'm there.

A floor by another.
Everything, I left them there.
Especially in a lan shop.

Stop.
Sat and Leaning against the chair
Watch the scene for 3 minutes.
9.13pm

So my vision really fails me..
That is one thing that I found out.

Seventh/last stop: home.
Time to go..
I don't wish to return late.

Too squeezy to think of anything.
But.. Saw Luther..
Zzz.. Teased.. -_-"
Honestly speaking, I don't have the mood to play.
Sorry..

I ran home..
Laugh as another attack came.

End.

So when is the rain going to stop.?
I think.. when it stops, time for me to see sun shines and rainbow. =)

Squeaks` @* 1:24 AM

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Friday, May 16, 2008

I laughed..upon seeing my results. =)
Failed here. =p
But time to mug..~

Maybe I will become Winnie's junior.
Or maybe, I will become Qian's classmate. xp

Well.. All C5, C6.
The best was only B3.
*Laughs.

But..Party has yet end!
I can score..
Though my faith waver a little.
But if I put in effort, I can do it. =p

Brother Roland and Sister Hazy taught me today~
I feel quite bad.
They treat me and teach me.
Need to thank them.
Shall sms tomorrow.
Well~ Work hard!

Family happened too much things that I don't feel like talking about it anymore.
I am too tired to take care of everything bits by bits.

I won't talk anymore.
Tired of everything.

Squeaks` @* 10:40 AM

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I believe.. you are happy now. Really do.
I was happy.
No room to salvage anything.

Stars were quite redundant now.
So 1000 stars has no meaning.
So why..ask for them..
You even lost them..
So..it means no significance either.
Keeping them has no means either.
Maybe. Just leave them in a lost.
It is lost anyway.
Some things are meant to be lost.
No need for explaination either.

Eyes are still red and swollen..
No meaning behind those cries..

Shouldn't be seeing your entries anymore.
It only allows me to see it more clearly.
And I remained that wonderful image of you.
No more others, just you.
That's it.

The sun set..shone so brightly.
I realised that I don't fear sunshine anymore,
It feels so warm and comfortable.
Though I feel fortunate,
But I need to leave.
Because it needs to shine on others too.
And it is time to.

An image after another..
I was happy.
Didn't know I could smile without you too.
But..all were so..unreal.

1000 wishes..of thousand stars.
Hidden to be found one day.
That long forgotten star who used to be there,
Waits for daybreak.
Another coincidence.
Yet the star's last breath living in our dimension.
From now, it is your dimension..

Once, I was really happy..
Once too, you are happy..
You taught me this sign. <3
And it has become < /33

I will forget I love you.

Squeaks` @* 9:26 AM

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Thursday, May 15, 2008

Silly again~

I cried this morning.
I flunked whole examination..

Mathematics: 46.1%
Social studies: 60%
Chinese: 52.2%
Combined science: 55.5%

There, failed again.
Failed to work better.. Sigh..
But I can only get emotional for 5 minutes.
Get back. My motive is to score for "O" levels.
Who cares if I fail mid-year badly and pass with flying colours.

Mm.. Sigh..
I stood at the bus stop..
The reflection showed my eyes.
How true.
My eyes spoke of my heart.

The pair of eyes that you like about me.
It is filled with tears when I looked at it.
Every single image flash one by one.
It just show how much I love you. I will never forget you.

How we met.
How we held hands.
How we fell for.
How we hugged.
....

So.. The image of a book shelves and 2 people..is the time when we had best memories.
How would I forget..?
I'll never..

I'll never be an escapist anymore.
I would face it.
I'm too late..
You don't.. anymore.

I want to tour JJC with you..
I still has many things to say to you..
But you are not there anymore.
You won't have time to talk to me either.

I have also become a burden to you.
I can say how I missed you through the eyes you used to look at..
I only..want you..

You held my hand to see rainbow.
But now a fading rainbow.
So.. Please don't let go of my hand..
I am used to holding your hands, that gentle hold which I never want anyone to replace.
As long as you know, I would feel touched.

No matter who I am to you now, I am always there.
*I just feel so bad to have made you think through. Cos' I long knew, You had someone else.
If you feel terrible, please tell me to leave you, and I will. So, You will regain your happiness. =')

Squeaks` @* 3:17 AM

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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

I came back from Boon Lay.
*laughs.
What a long trip..
Goes and return, 3 hours.

I went to Jurong Junior College to find Qian.
I miss her so badly.
If only I could join her too.

Sigh.
What if you lost something so precious to you.?
I feel so affected..
Everything happened too abruptly.
Made me feel that time just passed so quickly that I only wish,
Time could stop.

A life was lost today.
I should say.. I witness it..?
Just upset.

But with Qian, I feel so safe.
We would be going out soon..
*laugh..

Someone's leaving in June.
I..miss you.

Well, I think you have gotten over.
Silly.. Holding to something that is over and insignificant.
I could not take my eyes off what you have told me.
JJC..
Indeed. Surrounded by flats.
But.. Look very much like forest.
And..I like the olden feeling.
The trees around it looked so mature.
Laughs.

If time could turn back, I want to cherish my every single second with you.
It's just too late.

Heart just..trapped.
I will smile at the mirror..
Aww.. Frustrate.
I need some peace.

Squeaks` @* 7:39 AM

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Going to jurong..
Where I have fallen for you.
Sigh.

If only I can go to jjc..

I downright saddened.
Don't ask me why..

How I wish I can have you by my side..
Can I have the 1000 stars?
Please..

I just..cried.
I only need a hug..
A comfort.

Going out for a breather.

When I realized how much I needed you, I...
Alone.

I will try to..stay strong.

Squeaks` @* 12:09 AM

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Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Please allow me to get closer and whisper this to you
Don't let me wait every night in quietness
It was not easy to let go silently

For me, Just take it as this time is done for me
Don't let suffer me in loneliness for you
The air heard our conversation
But I don't have a choice.

Even if we encounter any problem,
I still miss you
Although I wish to give up at times,
Although I am willing.

Even if we are facing any obstacle,
I still miss you in the night
Facing heart breaks and loneliness
Although I am willing

Allow me to get near to you once more and whisper this to you
When I said this time I wish you would live on well
It is real; otherwise how can I let you go

For me, take it as this time it is just for me
Bestow me happiness with your smile
Don't let it away, our expressions
Please make your choice

Even if we encounter any problem,
I still miss you
Although I wish to give up at times,
Although I am willing.

Even if we are facing any obstacle,
I still miss you in the night
Facing heart breaks and loneliness
Although I am willing

My heart still thinks of you

Absolute heart spoken words.
The lyrics may not be well translated.
Cos' I tried to listen without looking at the lyrics.

Still silly waiting.
But I am willing to wait.
Learning how to let go.
But I am leave with no choice.

Sigh.

Squeaks` @* 10:32 AM

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So happy today
I just got home. 12am already. Yawns.

I just realised I am so long-winded. xp
I went to some places with minmin. She is so cute!
We catch a movie, "nim's island" -- quite okay show. Biographical/novel?
I want to watch Accuracy of death~ T-T Can I reward myself.?

Had dinner at KFC.. What the..
Food taste like.. --------ahhh~
Nice la~ I saw croaches and housefly.
Nice spot. Once I am done with food, I went off.
Not to mention! My Mango cake.. So expensive they so WHAT!!
Throw my cake away.. T-T Untouched one somemore.

But I just brought laopo to the Cathay and then watch scenery with her.
Nice eh.. Then I just use the scarf and lollipop.
Then this was the comment. "Char kway tiao?" "dung?" "flower on cow dung?"
Lols. So cute. Cos' it is grey in colour.
Beautiful scene and "cake", she was moved to tears~ *I am touched too~

Then by luck, I saw jiejie~
Called a taxi for min's parents and then play with jiejie till I reach home.
Wanted to see min home. But was like 11.15pm.
Sigh. I will see her home one day~ Must be responsible.
I am so worried about her safety.

Happy birthday my beloved ah min mon~
Message for min:
No matter what, I dote you as much as others do~ Love you too.
Must stay strong and happy.
We will be together always. =)
Friends forever. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

A bird flew past: Only one chance is given; once you missed it, you lose it forever.

Stressed! What am I supposed to do.? Keep him or..? He is innocent.!

Time to bath~ =P

Squeaks` @* 8:56 AM

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Sunday, May 11, 2008

Sigh..
Just now I got so emotional.
Cos' computer hang.

Then father switched off after I have repaired..
Until I cry..

Zzz.
Think the main problem is..
I got jealous.

Want see her eyes..
Sigh..

I think I need to get away.
Shoot.

Jiejie consoled me again.
I am so glad I have her.
Otherwise.. I think I will cry badly.

Just now, the tears were so difficult to flow.
I held on..
Idiot.

Sigh.. Stella ah Stella, time to move on~
Don't be stubborn liao.
He is gone.

Squeaks` @* 9:20 AM

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This is baby John. When he was a few days old.
With his small giraffe by him.
*laugh
Cute right?

This is Ailene jiejie and Francis gorgor.. A family photo. =p

This is how baby John looked like now.
Very cute right? I hugged him and carried him!
The one carrying him is Teresa jiejie, Francis gorgor's younger sister.

Shiwen jiejie and Eric.
Waiting to go in.
But I have yet reached~

The menu. Ma Maison.

Come to think of it, If it is very delicious, expensive also fine. But then a bit too salty~ xp
Look nice right?

Jiejie and her food. She looked quite tired.

This is the pizza that Eric is going to have.
He is quite nice..
He shared with us. lols..

I sit beside roy.
Then too shy to see the camera at first.
Then I just showed twist~
Roy also cover his face lo.

This is jiejie and Eric.
But no mistake.
Just friends only.

Then a kind waitress helped us to take photo.
Lol..
All twist..~

And another waitress helped again.~
All pose except me.
So extra~ xp

This is the key to foot the bill.
Very cute right?
I thought so too.

AH!
This is genting.
Say want to upload so long have not. Hahas.. Pardon me.

We just came from zoo to the circus~!!
No la.. This is our tour bus..
So cute..
We are all birds from Jurong bird park..
Ah~~ Jurong, Jerrome, Jurong, Jerrome~
Hahas.. So close!

Aiyo! Blogger's picture siao liao!
Cannot work..
Ah~ Too bad..
Show you next time~

Squeaks` @* 7:07 AM

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Wow.. 222 posts.

Today is my camera day.
I would either sleep, eat or hold camera~
This is arts.
Sacrificial to arts..
I am spending the whole day for my piece of work.

Thank goodness, I have borrowed a good book from library. =P
That teaches me how to do photography.
Simple and nice.
I will show you photos from my arts later~
=P It is not the time yet to show now.

Because this is copyrighted~
Otherwise I will be labelled with "Plagarism"
Right.

Today is mother's day!!
How did you guys celebrate for your beloved mother?
I wanted to bring her to Swensen.
But not today.
She is still not home yet.
At work, so I could only do a belated, exclusively by me~
Happy mama's day!

I'm so tired.
But today's plan is to get my arts done.
At least to finish till trial compositions drawings.
Colouring tomorrow.

Tomorrow, bring my mummy out~
And do some ten years series.. heh.
My tutor is pushing me~~ T-T
Must work hard!

Hm.. Now I know how you feel..
Jiejie says.. This is because I am used to your presence, not love.
This is so confusing.
I am still so reluctant to accept what she said.
But maybe true.

I searched my heart to find you today..
But deeply, I find many memories of the past.
None of now..
Except the words that deeply craved in my heart.
You don't know where I belong.
So do I.
I am willing to be your confidante, a sister to you now.

So..How do you feel?
We don't know.
But..I have strong love for you.
Or is it strong sense of possession.
I still don't believe that I am only used to.
I know..I love you.
*Wavered heart

Know something clear..
Rapheal..is a brother to me.
So think no further.
Just like them and you.

But one thing I am very sure of is my choice of direction.
I want to score well.
So.. currently..don't know.

I pressed my shutter quickly; fearing the time would be so heartless to leave me with no time to remember you.
Because my memories failed me, so I used my camera to remember you more vividly.
Just like the photo of your card is still on the wall.
Because I still need my memory of you.
So, I can't erase them.

May the vision of my right eye fails me..
My eyes could not see well.
I'm going to be a pirate*~
I'm so dead.
But I want to see you clear.
Really.

I dreamt of you..that I never wanted to wake up.
Cos' the images were full of you..
It is a secret.
I won't say what is in it.~ Bleahs~! =P

Oh right!
I'm planning.
The surprise for you. =D
You won't know until then.
But I am so unsure if you would attend.. =/
Nevertheless, if you turn up, we are going to have a great party!
If not..I will celebrate alone.
But I have faith in you! =D

*I am pressing the shutter..that has an image of you.. and me.

Squeaks` @* 6:09 AM

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Saturday, May 10, 2008

Now..Silly right?
I find myself looking for you..
But why..
I shouldn't..anymore.

I wish there is an end.
But I don't feel like facing the fact..
Fact that you won't be there.

So there were tears.
It was tears..
Wearing my sunglasses, hoping that no one knows.
Remember? Tears made Light turn into sparkling stars.
Then, I look at myself going blur and smear.
The price of beauty scenery is disappearing.
Just like the mermaid who is reluctant to kill her beloved prince who is going to marry another girl.
And she is just a sister.
She would rather to turn herself into bubbles instead of killing him.
This was how silly we were.

Lethargic.
Knowing more of your love life only drains me.
Should I let go?
But.. I wish I never does.
I could never make it.

Let me cry my eyes out.
Deteriorate my right vision so I won't hurt so much.
Accept the fact I am not the one.
Tell me then.. tell me to give up.

There was just another girl by you.
Why am I so silly to hold on?
It is just too late to hold a heart well.

Break me down..
Nevertheless..
The one who touched my heart.

It has been long since I hear from you
It has been long since I have a heart to heart talk with you.
How I wish you always tell me what you used to say,
"recently, why is there a breakout in your face?"

Are you still keeping your long hair
Are you still going home early
Are you still biting your nails as usual
Oh girl, I miss you so tonight.

Dream, if what we had were dream
Then why would I be moved
Who, for who
For whom was I moved every seconds and minutes

The wind wouldn't tell me
The cloud passed by silently
In Dark night, he would get emotional.
Only one of stars in the sky said,
"She has fallen asleep, shouldn't you be resting too?"

Wind wouldn't tell me.
The cloud passed by silently
Heart beats has persuaded me
That's right, the one who moved my heart
Who is she?
She shall meet me in my dreams.

I am still holding to his hands without him.
The silliest girl in the world.
Can I still love?
Would I still gain love?
Every answer remain silent.

You have her.
I have my pillows.
They are all wet..
How can I fall asleep in the night?

When I lose you.. I had insomnia too..
I will accept the fact that I love you but need to forget you.
I will accept that you love me no more.
And I will accept that everything has ended.
She cries.

I shut down.
Cos' I can only see black and white now.
Let me cry and eventually forget.

I went to family outing.
To somewhat a BBQ party.
Our mother's day celebration.
But this is not over.. Second round is by me~ Lols

I feel like vomitting..
Zzz.
Gastritis again.

Jiejie so nice.. She consoled me.
I'm down.
Pictures, I will update soon.. =)

Hurt me as you might, I remained faithfully silly.
So tears are gift to beautiful world.

Squeaks` @* 9:37 AM

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