i just understand why teenage look for a companion..
hmm.. well.. is it something in him/her that's unique that you love? to be able to content what you lack of? confidence? optimistic?
well.. maybe one day, when he/she no longer meets his/her needs, separation is confirmed.. or.. maybe lost
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Wednesday, September 12, 2007
i finally understand my mum le.. was mistaken.. hahas.. i thought my mum was bias.. hahas.. oo.. not until today.. hahas
i was brisk walking to school.. hahas.. leave my house at 7.06am then go to school.. but then.. little did i know when i last checked my phone for the time, i dropped it accidentally.. i supposed it was in the grass patch.. so no sound was made, and didn't even know where it was..
but as i walked, i wanted to check again.. but i found out that i lost my phone.. then flustered.. i walked all the way to see where my phone was.. but then time is getting late and the phone cannot be found.. so i gave up the search. i felt so sad after that.
i've got no choice but to go back to school. so i had to run to school so i won't be late. but then.. hais.. hahas.. before i reached the school gate.. i die on the floor.. hahas..
luckily the security auntie and my sweet isabella junior councillor carried me inside.. zzz.. i look so stupid then.. hahas.. but i have mr goh, one of discipline masters, miss ng (to be?), malay teacher, mr lim, vice principal, principal to look after me. =D hahas..
naughty me huh? hahas.. hmm. well.. okay la.. calmed down le jiu some of the teachers escorted me to the sick bay.. hahas.. insisted me to sit there for 30 mins.. hahas.. but then still very sad i lost the phone..
miss ng is a nice teacher.. she asked me what happened and i told her the incident.. hahas.. i expected her to say i should not bring phone and confiscate my phone. she not only didn't do that, she helped me to find my phone.. hahas..
so happy.. i met another kind soul, mr noordin. hahas.. he found my phone and specially deliver to my school.. hahas.. so happy.. then i wish to thank everyone who helped me. especially miss ng and mr noordin. hahas..
actually, it won't hurt me so much if i lost this phone. is just the sms from laogong and the photos i have shared with him.. hees.. as well as my buddies de photos.. yupp. so i xintong laogong and i took de photos. cos' the precious memories are all there.. hees..
oh ya.. when i talked to mr noordin, i still remembered i said.. "you took, i mean.. you you you.. you pick.. no.. i mean you helped me pick up my phone??!!" hahas... sounded sooooo funny.. hahas..
i also got my testimonial o.. hahas.. the SGC.. known as the school graduating certificate. actually singapore also can la.. hahas.. quite good o.. i'm happy with the cca points the most.. hahas.. after so many years of hard work.. i got to see my result.. hahas..
i'm so happy.. hahas.. that my mum actually cares for me.. cares that i don't feel well.. after this incident.. hees.. i really.. hees.. happy.. muacks~! loves my mummy.. cheers to all mums in the world for their love and kindness.. i'll be a good child.. hees..
laogong.. i love you. <3
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Tuesday, September 11, 2007
hmm.? i'm back.. hahas.. hmm.. with a happy feeling.. this is what i got from these days.. heh.. look~
"happiness and sadness are controlled by us. No one can control how/what you think and how you reaction. conclusion: sadness and happiness can be chosen. what you want to be, depends on you."
-by a friend-
reasonable, my friend? hahas.. well.. this is just one of my naive thinking. hahas..
hmm.. yupp.. well.. i chose to be happy everyday, back to that jumpy me.. the used to be naive and up to mischief little girl.. though i've grown up.. but i still can enjoy this short moments.. ya..
here's short stories..
a girl whose name is lina, was a very sweet and pleasant girl. but due to the sad incident that happened in her past, she've lost her childhood without enjoyments and freedom like other kids. but as she grew up, she led a normal and ordinary life which she has always hoped for.
she grew up to be a young lady. however, she found out that her friends had wonderful childhoods. she felt so jealous. therefore she acted like a kid to retrieve her childhood.
one day, one of her friends, jacelyn could no longer stand her behavior and scolded her for being juvenile. she was upset at first and was unhappy with jacelyn. over a period of time, she finally understood that her childhood can never be perfect anymore; a past of hers and was embarassed for her actions. she began to behave like a lady.
there.. nice one? hahas.. if she were to be realistic, she could have been more happy ya? so this was the path she chose. hahas
actually nothing.. recently, i felt lost and confused.. he is really nice.. but do i really deserve him..? over this 2 days, i've been thinking to amend the faults and mistakes that i have done to him. he really don't deserve such unfair treatments. i've always been the one who demands and he'll always be the one contributing. it's just when he agreed that we've drifted apart, my feelings started to waver.. so.. do i really.. really deserve him at all??
hmm. even if i were to requested by someone to let him go, i have no rights to hold him back. hmm.. in anyway.. i love him. hahas. just forever.. going on.. but then, hahas.. i saw his sweet, caring replies and smses in the past.. but compare to now.. it really kind of hurt.
i want to be myself. to love him of myself in heart.. i'm more than contented to love him.. i'm really.. very fortunate. whereby i didn't cherish it. now, i looked back, i see myself drifting away from what i am. i want.. just simply, loving him. i hope to go back to what we are before.. loving him. expect no more from what he gives in relationship, loving him for who he is..
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Saturday, September 8, 2007
after typing chapters after chapters, i think i have to give myself a break to tell about something i wish to say. well. nothing much.. this september holiday, is not really a holiday.. a lot had happened.
2 days ago.
hmm.. we went to some kind of auction that was organised with the prayers of seventh month festival.. however, i lost my accessories at the location after i took out in order to do stunts as my brother and i promised. well, it was all right. i passed all my accessories to my brother. little did i know, he actually lost everything. i wasn't happy of course. but then, i didn't blame him
my mum practically push all blame onto me, saying that i shouldn't have taken out. and that was so extra. "if you don't wish to wear it, then don't wear! now it's lost and wasted!" she blamed. what can i do? to amend my mistakes, i took the effort to look for the lost even knowing that my brother went there to look for it. i found nothing so i went back.
knowing nothing at all, she scolded me even badly after my return. i was so curious. she kept blaming and reprimand me till i got home. feeling bad, i threw the heavy bag of things. when i wanted to place it in the taxi boot, the plastic bag broke and everything scattered.. the more scoldings i got.
later, i found out that my elder brother told my dad that i was kidnapped. then they blamed my younger brother who lost my stuffs. my mum who thinks i was in wrong and caused blames to be on my brother's shoulder, got very unhappy and reprimanded me. she dote on this brother very very much. so no doubt, someone has to take the blame. hais.. should say i sway lo..
yesterday and today
i avoided talking to her so there won't be unhappiness.. but she thinks that it is my fault again. she complained that i was throwing tantrum and unhappy that she reprimanded me. hais.. she didn't even bothers to hear me out. how she knows how i feel. it's all her conclusion. hais. the only person who can cleared the air is my sis. she help to investigate and told me that my mum said this in anger: go out better! no need to see her face. i take it as i never had this daughter!
what can i say? hais
doubts, confusion & love?
oh.. these days, i turned very moody cos' some other places has trouble that is still brewing. so naturally, he was affected. on that very day, i contacted him. but he wasn't in mood too. so he wasn't able to console me. unable to clear my problem or find a soulmate, i got emo each day.
in addition, i was really jealous about her. though it's the treatment problem, but i got better cos' she's not present but the past. i kept noticing. he was somehow, feeling quite bothered or interrupted cos' i called at the wrong time. he doesn't likes to talk either. so, we somehow drifted further.
due to his reactions to me, i felt the irrtitation i caused to him. no doubt, his feeling to me was suspected. all the cold reactions, the behavior, i began to doubt his feelings for me.. i was confused when i mixed all to get the answer.. but as time passes, i felt disheartened.
today, i think i would speak our hearts out. so i know how he feels. but then, he never really say much. reasonable. but i come to know that there are still much to understand. blogs are supposed to be personal, thinking of own. so.. i won't force. but somehow.. hais. nevermind.
he was emotional. but i wish to know why. but he doesn't know why. can't tell me anything. i can do nothing. but to see him like this on and on. well, i have nothing to then.
though i thought it might be reasons that it has faded, but he said it wasn't. maybe, just the way i was is better. as for now, the feelings weren't as strong as before. to me, the feeling weren't as strong as i thought. now, i speak to friends be it guys or girls, i just feel the emptiness. maybe, to fill up the place where i felt lost in that aspect. but seemed to contradict and caused another effect. well.. i'm okay. hahas. maybe.. if i get back to my old self, i can fill up that emptiness within me.
not only attention.. but the care.. i wanted.. it's okay.. maybe.. we'll see..?
the deteriorating health
i suspect.. gastric ulcer.. the sharp pain existed suddenly. till now, and i got flu.. i was thinking to see a doctor. hahas. so got to work hard for my own consultation fees. i certainly hopes that the clinics will drop the intention of referring me to hospital again. whatever equipment they lacked, please be there. i don't need confirmation for this illness.. just give me medicine.. so i can control..
going to have fever soon.. the flu got worse with something stuck in the lungs.. something like this.. then soreness in throat and heavy headed. just some coughs and running nose. i'm okay!! just need some panadols to be under control.. hees.
i was.. thinking.. if i dies, ... what will happen? the world still moves, the time still goes.. hahas.. just out of sudden.. he asked me the same question.. but to me, cry non-stop.. he's the one true love before so many others' play.. he stands an important place, if this happens, i think maybe, i'll make hundreds of stars, to be accompanied with him. and wait for me, i'll be there soon after my lifespan ends.. will be remembered. deeply.. all that have been done, kept in a special place.
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Friday, September 7, 2007
*star is the previous chapter, of the girl's name. so does ice whose the leading main character.
chapter 4-the day before unexpected 26october'06
"yawns..hahas.. the movie was great!! but sad ending.. what a movie.. hahas.. still have to wait for that part II.. and the movie..." she continued, talking ever more than before.. "i'm going back to school tomorrow for lessons." he said. "he's in year2. having important exam already. so, he have to work hard. jiayou" her thoughts of intention whispered quietly.. "well, okay.. hmm.. i have something on too.." she smiled, telling him. "hmm.? something on? may i know?"out of curiosity he asked. "oh.. nothing much.. just going to join my volunteering group for somewhat like a charity activity. ya." she replied. "where's the venue of the place?" he asked.
"oh.. we're meeting our leader in yt.. some youth centre. hahas.. then go to the destination. ya." she replied. "huh, huh, huh??!! what.? yt??" he was really surprised. "what's wrong?" asking him; very surprised by his reactions. "oh.. nothing.. it's just.. the location is near my house. hahas" he seemed to be surprised. "huh?! for real you lived near there??" she was surprised too.. "yupp. i live there. hahas. perhaps i might just run up to you. hahas."this was what he said. "maybe." -with hope, she thought.
chapter 5- coincidence 27october'06
"yawn. hey, will we be late for the meeting?" she asked her brother who came with her to the outing. "i doubt so. don't think too much." he replied.
"here we are. luckily it's only 8am. we still have time. hahas. an hour to go." she said. "maybe."-her thoughts yesterday flashed back. "hmm. i just came out from my house. have you reached here?" she received an sms from him. excited but trying to be composed, she replied, " ya.. i have reached. why?" "no, just asking. i still have some time before lesson. hmm.. want to meet up?" he asked. "hahas. i doubt you can find me.!" she replied in a naughty manner but excited. she kept smiling away. "i live here for sometime. i think i can find you." he replied this message.
her phone rang and saw his number. she picked up, feeling shy, "hello? hmm. yes?" "hey, wait there okay? i'm coming soon."he answered "what?!" shocked, she flustered running to every corner she can find to avoid seeing him. "where are you..? i don't see you. almost there."he asked. "i doubt you can find me cos' i'm away from there. hahas" she lost her composure. he laughed..
she walked briskly to out of the wall to find a better place to hide.. "hees. i don't think you can find.." before she finished her sentence.. "found you!" he exclaimed with his voice coming out from the phone and from the direction he was. "ah!" she shouted, squating down; don't know where to hide. he hanged the line on the phone, and walked up to her smiling. her blood seemed to gushed to her head, she blushed. "sis! your friend?" her brother asked. "...ya" she replied.
they found a place to sit and rest. "so, what time do you have to go?" he asked. "45 mins later? approximately there."she said. "oh..i see" he answered. both of them seemed to be speechless. just then her brother squeezed his way to sit beside her, trying to push her to his side. accidentally, her head and shoulder lay against his. she quickly sit up straight and kept apologising. "nah, it's okay. hahas." he said smiling. "my brother is playful." she smiled.
they talked and played. there was even magic tricks that he performed. "time passes so fast!" she thought. "we have to go, it's already 9. well, do you want to go? we shouldn't have taken up your time. so sorry." she felt very bad. "it's okay! hmm. it's just nearby right? i see you there then i go?"he offered. "erm, okay."
"i want a drink!" my brother requested. -(-_-)lll- "oh, hahas. i don't think i have got small change, only a $2 note." -_-lll "hmm? it's okay, i have got change." he said kindly. "i change it with you?" "nah, it's okay. let me give you a treat." he suggested. so she stood in the park seeing both of them going toward the vending machine. "hm, he treats me so well. hmm. does he, does he likes me?" he came back and smiled. "i see you guys go in?" "it's okay!! i feel bad about it." she replied looking awkward. just then, she receive a call. "hello?" "have you guys reached?"the person in charge, vivian said. "yup. we're here."she said " why didn't you guys come in?" "err.."she looked at him, and turned away. "i have a friend with me outside. so i talked to him. hahas" she forgotten that she was supposed to be there on time. "nevermind. i'll see you outside."
vivian was very surprised to see a guy. "she expected a girl?" she thought. afraid that both of their knowing would be known, she got anxious. "schoolmates?" "err.. no. he's just normal outside friend."she replied to vivian's question. she continued, "where does he live? how do you got to know him then?" to her surprise, he answered, "i live in yt. we got to know each other through friends." "oh.. both of you, in relationship?" she asked again. "no.! ...we're.. not.." she replied quickly. "very well." she finally stopped asking.
"we're going to mrt station and you?" vivian asked. "ya. me too." he replied. "i'm going towards bukit batok. ya." he continued. "hey! we're going there too!" she replied excitedly at the same time trying to be composed with vivian's presence and observation. "what a coincidence, hahas. maybe we can go together since it's the same direction?"he said "yupp!" she smiled with joy.
vivian talked to him on the way while she walked with her brother. but she was not at ease. she kept looking at vivian and his direction. finally, they reached the place where they agreed to see the rest of the members. he was the only one who is in uniform. everyone started to divert their attention towards our direction. "hello. and this person is..?" questioned raphael, another person in charge. "oh, this is star's friend. ya." replied vivian. "hello. this is raphael from yue association. and you're?" "i'm star's friend, ice. ya"he answered politely. "oh." they talked to him and she was questioned by others. "hey star, your boyfriend?" her friends asked. " no. hahas. a friend of mine." she said. "well, if he's my boyfriend.. =)" she thought.
"we're going this way.. you want to come with us for lunch?" raphael asked. "oh, it's all right. i need to get back to school. i'm going towards that direction." he smiled. "oh. okay. thanks. hmm. contact later?"star said. "ya" he answered. "see you later. byebye" he smiled widely.
chapter 6 - 27october'06 the confession.
"what are you doing now.? hahas. my activity is ending soon. hmm. ya." star sent an sms to ice. "tinng" she received an sms. "oh. i just finished my revision. hahas. going soon." replied ice. "want to have dinner together?" star sent another sms. "sure. meeting place?" "we'll decide later."
star brought his brother to jurong east mrt station after deciding where to meet. "hmm. we'll go jurong east after that?" star whispered. her brother looked at her weirdly. "why? for what?"he asked softly. "we'll go eat dinner with the elder brother, ice whom you saw just now. is that okay?" "sure!" he said happily. "bye!!" both of us bid goodbyes to raphael, vivian and the rest.
"hello." they met and walked together. from one place to another. they window shop, walked to arcade. he played a game of basketball. and we went on walking and looking around. "brother ice, are you my sister's boyfriend?"my brother did something so daring that both of us went speechless.. "is there any kfc?" she pointed towards imm shopping centre. "we go see?" ice asked. "sure." "gosh. we have to jaywalk ya? and climb over then green fence. hahas." star said in humour. they jaywalked and climbed over. star's brother went cross faster than they do. just when star wants to cross, the cars are coming. however, ice was in daze. afraid that he'll be left behind and in danger, she held his wrist and ran cross. "hmm!! i'm holding his hand!!"she thought. "oh gosh!" then she blushed. but tried to treat it as nothing happened. she let go of his hand after crossing. "how would he think of me?" she walked away as fast as thunder.
they walked and walked. but still to no avail. half way, she kept rubbing her eyes. it was unbearable itching. maybe an infection. "are you all right? you want to wash your eyes?" star shook her head. he can't see her face well as she was wearing a cap. he bent down a little and looked at her. "really?" "ya. okay. hmm wash my eyes." she then went to the washroom. "i doubt there is.. we only see macdonalds. do you want to go back?" ice asked after they came out of the washroom. "i guess so..?" star replied.
again, they had to walked passed the road. after crossing and climbing, star began to daze. "hmm. " she wonder her thoughts. and suddenly, ice held her hand like she did, and ran across the road. shocked and surprised, she looked at him. he just on walking, appear to be fine and normal. but this time, her hand was held on even after crossing. she struggled her hand off lightly only to realise that he held on not letting go. smiling, as her heartbeat really really fast. trying to see his expression and see him smiling too..
they walked holding hands, and reached the fastfood restaurant. they sat down getting ready to eat. ben, star's brother said, "both of you get something to eat. i wait here." only then they let go of hands and got themselves food. she took two extra straws and made a star. "i'm weird, am i? i make star each time i go fast food restaurants. hahas" she smiled at him. after she placed her hands under the table, he held her hand again. she smiled and felt secured. ben was up to mischief, "ah! i dropped my wallet!" then he bent down looking at their hands. they quickly let go. but it was too late. "i knew it!! both of you are together.!" he exclaimed.
they went to mrt station soon after that and sat together. "i've got something important to ask you" ice whispered to her, holding her hand and got close to her. "hmm.?" she looked in front trying to pretend that nothing happened. "hmm..? confession? oh! don't read too much into it!" she thought. he lay his head against hers looking at the window, "will you be my girlfriend?" he asked. "huh?!" she blushed right away looking away. "hmm..!! for real? i really can be??" she thought. nodding her head, didn't know what she was doing anymore. "what is nod?" he teased her. "en.!" "what is 'en'?"he teased her once more. "yes!"she replied looking really shy.. "what is yes?" he continued teasing. "yes, i'll be! i'll be your girlfriend!!" she said loudly. only to realise that people around her started looking at her.
they got off at the station and leaving soon. "get going. your train is coming soon.. you should have gotten off at an earlier station." star started to feel a little worried for him. "i'll go soon.. after the next train comes okay?" they sat down.. "i help to see the trains okay.. not getting both of your ways!" ben said. they started asking questions like.. "why do you like me.." "ermm.. just..." "and i wanted to confess after my national exam.. but.." when the train comes, "we wait for the next one? please?" "oh.. okay then..".. and another.."next one please?? i don't bear to leave.." "hmm. ya.." then ben got irritated. " ooie.. guys.. it's getting late.. still want to lovey dovey arhs.? it's going to be 9pm soon"ben said. "really?? then better get going.. the next one." star said.
"it's coming. get ready" ben came to us. "well, get ready." star said. he stood up.. a little reluctant. "okay, i'll get going and.." gruuuu..!! the loud sound of train covered his words. "what?? i can't hear you.!" she shouted. he hugged star tightly.. "I love you!!" he shouted.. hugging even more tightly. she was stunned by his actions and confess.. she paused.. for seconds.. then look at him going into the train. "byebye~!" he said.. smiling brightly again. she smiled noticing that everyone looking at them. after the train has gone, she look at her phone smiling away again. looking silly. thinking of the incident, she held her hands together tightly, missing him..
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Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Seven things that would scare me
-to see him with someone
-to see supernatural oo~! though i wish to. hahas..
-to see bad results
-to see stalkers [my friends de la -_-" seen it before]
-erm.. blood?
-pain
-relapse
Seven things I like
-my best friends[that include qian, winnie]
-talk
-shop
-eat
-sleep
-play
-him
Seven most important things in my room
-armed bedroom set[no more coldness!]
-my wardrobe[no clothes, not even bathroom can walk out right?]
-my fanfan
-accessories* not that important la..
-my soft toys on bed
-my working place[full of books lo. teachers say, "study in a condusive environment.!"
-the curtains just outside my door; privacy!.[mysterical me?]
Seven random facts about me
-optimistic
-trend
-not active
-good girl
-hardworking
-sweet
-tell lies..=x
Seven things I can do
-walk
-jump
-crab
-talk
-look
-work
-nothing else
Seven things I can't do
-can't dance
-can't sing
-can't play
-can't love
-can't cook
-kill
-stop eating vege/fruits
Seven words I say the most
-so lame
-i love you
-i miss you
-zzz
-three lines
-mama/papa
-hello/byebye
Seven people I want to see doing this
-loving couples together
-all my jiemei get married/live happily[i want be bridemaid!]
-everyone smile
-children in joy
-world piece
-school/home jokes
-someone study overseas
this was something i looked through from author blog, previous posts de. just realised that i didn't finish looking. then found this that i wish to do long ago. but i saw..
very very much saddened.. hais.. no wonder i feel weird. here.. i just look at author's blog.. all his past.. wo hao chi cu o! extremely jealous.. compare this relationship these months with his "her", i'm nothing..
no comments.. don't be too angry if i extracted..
this.. v
i wont ever let go...
no matter wat happens...
no matter how difficult it is...
i promise i wont let u go...
i will be there 4 u always...
there are sweeter comments made by an author.. i don't want to say anything.. from the blog, i looked for a story; that someone's presence should be known from the day her status exist and found out that she only officially appears in january where 3 months passed so instantly. she is an unimportant character. the above was for the main leading character's "her"
this is a side story of the unimportant person, "she".
chapter one: during 2oo6 of main characters
coincidentally, she got to know him while adding wildly. it was a special event where she actually was able to get know to him, a passionate guy in college year 2. she realised that he met problems with the leading female character after some chats on web. consolation and comforting was the only thing that she can do. she just got to know him on web. her thoughts was, "wow.. passionate guy do exist. if only there is someone like him to be my love.."
out of curiosity, she looked into his profile on the web. "gosh! a prince charming." she went blushing. -first sight in love? "hais. it's okay, if he is not attached, he will be the most desirable boyfriend. errps think too much, better help improve their relationship."
"hold her hand. it does pass warmth and show her your love for her.."she smiled typing this message to him. finally improvements in their relationship.
chapter two: later in september 2006
"how's both of you??" she smiled typing online. "hais.. we broke up.. don't say anymore.. too much has happened.."he replied sadly. she drifted away from this topic after coming to realised that she could not help them anymore. she joked, play, had fun chatting. this occured when her brother said he needs the computer. feeling that the spirit has been dampened, she asked for his number wanted to continue chatting.
she didn't really think much.. feeling bored, she called him right away.. before the call is answered, she hanged up. "hey, this is rude. at least an sms before call! =\" she thought. so she started typing. before completing a sentence, the phone rang. she jumped in surprised upon hearing it; knowing that it must be him, she answered awkwardly. "hello?", "hello. did someone called just now?" he said. "hmm.. gentleman's voice.."-first good impression- "yupp.. me. *name, the one who talked to you on the web." "oh. hahas..." ..... they went on chatting for 3 hours.. unknowingly, developed good impression.. or perhaps, a crush.
chapter three: october2oo6-appointment
later.. they contacted each other everyday for a month. until one day, he said, "there is a latest movie that's coming up soon. i want to watch but no one accompany." "well, hmm. i heard of it. interested too~ hahas."she said while thinking,"*shy.. i want to watch with him too. maybe, i should tell him?".. "hey.. care to watch with me? since you don't have companion just like me, then shall we watch together?" he asked. "sure! when?" she replied excited. "ermm. 25th october, 1pm?" "okay."
after getting excited some days, she hesitated on that very day. her school displayed a show that instill values, related to prevention; topics on web -do not go out with web friends- "arhs~!! what if he lies? but should be true.. believe..!" trying to convince herself.
after school, she started walking home while pondering, " hmm. confusion.. what should i do?" she does all the chores.. and kept looking at her sleeping mother. however, she still could not bring up her courage to ask. "gosh, it's already 2.30pm.." later, she asked her sister what to do. her sister encouraged her too.. she changed into outdoor clothes and told her sister to leave a message for her mum. "are you coming soon?" she received an sms..
"oh my god.. it's 4.30 already.." she reached the mrt station and walked up to the cinema. it was drizzling then.. she ran up the escalator and started visualising sneakily behind the wall to spot him. "there he is!" hiding behind the wall again.. but she had to approach him as the movie starts at 4.30.. she lowered her head and walked up to him. "hello.. let's go.." whispering. she looked downward and did not dare to show her face. "where's the ticket?" flustering, continue looking downwards. "here.. erm. i can't see you face.." he said..
on the escalator, he peeked to see her face. she looked away, seemed to be frightened after noticing that he was looking at her. "i remember you said that your hair was badly cut. where?" she started to panic and looked up. "hey don't see..!" trying to cover her hair then looked downwards again.
both of them sat and watched the movie together. the lights were dim then she courageously showed her face. she looked at him closely. the friendly smile that he showed made her heart beat fast.. she kept peeking at him and whenever he discovers, he smiled. the opening of the movie was boring. she just put her leg up on the chair roughly and watched. unknowingly, she almost leaned onto his shoulder. she got up quickly and leaned onto the wall. he smiled with curiosity.
after watching, they had dinner and she starts to talk more. he remained quiet. however they decided to go somewhere else. it rained and he sheltered her walking towards another destination after dinner. walking aimless without specific direction, they went to another shopping centre. they finally walked into arcade. "want to play?" he said. "erm. i didn't bring enough."she looked embarassed. "nevermind. i treat you?" "okay." an exciting car racing competition between them started. however, she was not only a newbie, she was inexperienced in driving too. she lost eventually. "hahas" he laughed.. "let's go. should we go home?"
they both chatted and took a photo using phone camera during their ways to mrt station near her home. he got closer to her and placed his head against hers. "kecheek" the photo was taken. "time passes so quickly.. hais" she thought. "hey, got to go. see you." she said. he walked out of the train and something caught her in surprise. "hmm.. hees. i see you go?"he asked shyly. "no~ let me see you off. sorry to have taken up your time." she said, feeling bad about it. "hmm. okay.. the next train comes, i go?" "okay."
he got into the train when it arrived and sat facing the direction to the exit. she walked up to the escalator and waved goodbyes. he did the same thing. but as the stairs moved up slowly, she can no longer see his face. "toot toot toot~! doors closing~" suddenly, he bent down and smiled brightly, "byebye!" she giggled. she squating down and waved goodbyes till she no longer sees him.. her heart still beats fast, looking at the photo they took earlier on..
to be continued...
bear with me.. this is the first three chapters side story.. eh.. very weird de.. but i cried when i saw the author's message to "her".. hais.. not the same treatment to another side story girl whom love him.. continue catching up bas.. my story may not be interesting T_T bear with me..
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yeah~! exams over le!! no more chinese! no more english! no more ss!! hees.. but so many of them got lousy result.. hahas.. cos' never do well.. hahas.. ss study not enough then english unable to finish. so japalang japalang(anyhow) do lo.. hahahas.. do summary first.. in the end not enough for other paper.. very prepared to get grade 5 for english.. hahas.. then next paper.. one month later. hahas.. 1st of october. then officially off days~!!! unlimited de o!! maybe i go ITE then orh~!!!!!!! hahahas.. or maybe i go Sec 5.. also ORH~!!! hahahs.. hahahs..
in anyway.. i wish to rest la.. hahas.. so funny.. prelim serious then actual slack.. hahas..
oh ya.. i got best pals to accompany for the past few days.. hahas.. jiaxian and vincent.. hahas.. we exchange our secret, say our heart out, console one another. hahas.. these are bu neng shuo de mi mi(the secrets that cannot be revealed).. hahas..
yesterday, this was what happened.. hahas.. i solo study then both of them accompany me lo.. after listening comprehension, we went to library laugh and talk and discuss.. then they were like exchanging thoughts lo.. then went to lunch. then during lunch we talked about our secrets hahas.. then got funny de got saddening de lo.. hahas.. hmm.. then all of us got emo till we get back to school and study again. study until exam starts lo.. in the end. i almost cried after the paper.. cos' i chose the wrong question to do. hais.. hmm. but it's okay la. so we went to have lunch lo.. but unexpectedly, saw my primary schoolmates.. the situation was very embarassing.. hais..long story. jiaxian so fast go home. then relieve stress in arcade. vincent treat me play car racing games.. then take same bus home.. hahas.. that's all lo.. so happy.. talking on the mic with my friends then rest
today lehs. not good lo.. still got them to accompany la.. and the cat that don't want to leave my school.. hhas.. so cute.. its eyes colour are different. they say it wore contacts.. so funny.. hahas.. it is white de o.. hahas.. my friends' reaction very funny.. all girl who dislike cat stood on the canteen table.. hahas.. so funny. otherwise they would stand far far away as if it got disease.. hao ke lian o.. hahs.. but okay la.. the i go home slack lo.. rest.. super tired.. all my cells kept dying.. hahas.. hahas..
hmm.. deardear, i love you lots lots. hees.. =)
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