Does she mean it?
Does she really mean it?
Or words for the sake of words?
Should she speak even?
It is fine.
Well, she does not think of anymore.
She is so dead..
She has not started her revision well..
But something so happy was,
She managed to play Zanarkand.
Though only a small part. =)
She has no grade.
Yet able to play 6th grade.
Thanks to Eileen and Simin.
Both grade 6 to 7..
*laugh.
Soon.. She shall learn to play, Mariage de amour.
Is this the right spelling?
Laugh..
Maybe she will have her own piano one day.
Pianoist star shining soon.
All the best for mid year!!!
She shall practise her piano
And do lot lot revision.
By the way,
Thanks Eileen.
For asking your father to send her to her nearby residential.
Otherwise the books are too heavy to be carried home. =)
Shall play piano with you very soon again!! =)
Mrs florence hoo helped her in chinese.
She will strive for chinese!
Do more composition!!
Improve in expression too.
Thank you teacher.
She is so concerned for qianyong. =)
Mr Quek too!!
Thanks for teaching her to read and describe the map correctly.
Mrs Ng too..
Thank you for your help in mathematics when she need it so much.
She will revise all!
Laugh.. Today is a thank you day..
Grateful to many, many people.
*Laugh.
Life is so much more colourful..
Tomorrow, maybe shall go study with Jiaxian and Huiting.
My friend is going overseas to study soon.
Sigh.
His father told him that he may be sent.
Just waiting for a consent.
Is it like this that everyone is leaving so soon?
She bet she will cry terribly leaving the school.
Remember.. She need to learn how to play a piece before she leave the school.
This wish is coming true..
=)
Star shines after rain.
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Tuesday, April 29, 2008
She got "Zanarkand" piano score.
Need to figure out only?
But that is grade 6.
She is not even grade one.
Work hard~
She found out that she has drifted.
Quite far from her expected studies.
She is so dead.
She failed quite a number of tests.
It is quite disappointing.
Low morale.
Well.. Practise while she can maybe.
Her junior, Eileen and her went to play piano.
Studied a little too.
She is so humble and nice.
She see her to compass point too.
Funniest thing was, teacher claimed that she could look for seniors who are her juniors for help.
Is she not useless.?
She had consultation and made her too lethargic to do anything.
Today she went to have her precious watch repaired.
She stepped into the shop and the shop keeper was repairing.
"Little girl, are you sure that you still want this watch?"
"Hmm.."
"The battery is flat, the strap is spoiling soon and it lost the metal piece"
"And if you were to really repair it, it cost you $14. It is just a cheap watch. Why don't you buy one of our watch to replace it?"
Nevertheless, she wants it repaired.
This is her most precious watch her mother gave.
How could she throw it away.?
It has great sentimental value.
Her mother gave it to her.
This was when she realised.
Everyone may think that it appears cheap, meaningless, replaceable,
but it consist of all priceless values.
So she cherish it like a treasure even of people treat it like a rubbish.
So does love.
Everyone may think that loving one who is utterly hopeless is crazy.
But it consist of all the unconditional love.
So she cherish it like a treasure even when people feels that it is not worth.
She misses her parents.. It is already 11.30pm.
They are having OT..
Sigh..
Is this what you think?
Escaping from the fact..?
She could do nothing.
She is almost to crying..
She is struggling with studies.
However, sun shone at a certain angle, rainbow appears.
She stopped crying.
Do you remember, "how rainbow was formed"?
You taught me.
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Monday, April 28, 2008
Today is the 203 posts.
*laugh..
Sigh. Still in cold war with her eldest brother.
All misunderstandings.
Clear the air~
She hope her family will improve. =)
Know, she will work hard to go polytechnics.
She needs a new computer. > <
Maybe. She shall slog hard to get one by herself.
Must be by herself. =P
Aww. She is injuring herself.
Rushed for food causing indigestion definitely when her stomach already not well.
Though sharp pains became more frequent, but believed to be certainly utterly stressed.
This friday, mid-year examination.
Classmates Ganbatte~!
Laugh* She has a company.
Meiqi accompanied her to study.
It has been long since she talked in school.
*laugh..
And back home too..
She walked to the 27 bus-stop.
She even took a picture of sunset.
Sadly, an old man took by him.
Her heart went all out to him.
She saw him picking rubbish our from the bin.
A can by another.
Plastic bags too.
Sad. She knew he must have wanted to get them for a living.
Is this what typical singaporeans, or rather typical "filial" children should do when their parents grow old?
Have they ever thought that their parents took care of them so tentatively before?
Everything was ignored.
She thought then, she will treat her parents very well in future.
This is an oath.
A determined one too.
Saddened by the scene.
Sun shone on her face.
As usual, she looked the sky.
Sunrise, star disappears.
Sunset, star appears.
It shows that star and sun live in different dimensions.
Quote for the day:
Cherish every moment of joy because it doesn't mean it last forever.
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Sunday, April 27, 2008
Stars with moon.
Sun appears, stars gone.
So no tolerance for others allowed.
No existence, no need for it.
She who holds shall let go by herself.
He once loved her..at least.
This.. is a content.
She has his letters and photo kept well at every corners.
Mr tiny in a box.
Neoprints, photos, first letters under desk.
Necklace, ring in cabinet.
Lastly, shirt is also in cupboard.
Well kept.
Nevertheless, it affects no more.
Sister says he is not the moon but the sun.
She knows she is talking weird.
But this is the fact.
She rejects anyone.
Did not accept.
Now, she should know that she have to let go.
She cried hard today.
After seeing..
"will cherish our r/s."
"you've completed my life."
"love you 1314"
These are sweet but not meant for her now.
She walks on.
Move on.
Because standing at the same point she missed so much.
Never will she think of him anymore.
She can stand strong alone.
She has her friends with her.
By the way, he did so many funny things which cheered her up.
Last time she used to dislike conversing with him.
Now, looking at different perspective of him..
Thank you, Raphael.
You made her day.
Forever best brother.
Far she looks, she has many to complete.
Yeah!!! They go out again~
Wiie, Qian, Siie too!! hahas.
Friends forever!
Toast to all friends in the world.!
Last, She cut her hair. Hahahs. =x
Time to study~ byebye!
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Saturday, April 26, 2008
Happy but not right.
He is not him.
She knows he won't look.
Sighing~
Contrary..
Creating a conversation that you would not understand how deep the meaning was.
Depth..
With double means, she hopes you never understand..
I am happy today..
Laugh.*
On the rock, i wrote something.
Very in depth, i think.
Every sunrise, the stars can see the sun.
You should have gone there to watch sunset.
On weekends maybe troublesome. but..nice.
Umm.. sigh..
Why then?
Even conversation are not understandable.
The fact she goes secretly.
Never does on board.
An arm's length away from..
Sunset and sunrise were all a complete story.
Yet incomplete now.
Silent yearning.
Regardless who you are, because she look you upon as..
No matter how she is apart..
You aren't the moon.
You are the sun.
Because stars do not appear in daybreak, they hide or rather vanish from the blue sky.
So star never gets to see sun.
She drew a star on the rock.
So star sees the moon, sun always.
Not light years apart anymore.
On board. They faced.
Star fear no Daybreak.
She is at there for life at least.
Stellar may ceased then,
The star will remain with sun.
Until our end of the world.
You will never know.
She will never tell.
Let it flow away.
Be gone.
Along with the sea.
You are supposed to not know her.
And will never.
She kept quiet in a corner, missing alone.
No one knows.
Stars hides in the dark.
Silence in the air.
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Muthu is so CLEVER!
*MUTHU & THE INTERVIEWER*
Interviewer : "What is your birth date?"
Muthu : "13th October."
Interviewer : "Which year?"
Muthu : "Every year."
******
MUTHU & HIS MANAGER*
The Manager asked Muthu at an interview....
"Can you spell a word that has more than 100 letters in it?"
Muthu replied: "P-O-S-T-B-O-X."
******
MUTHU & LONDON TRIP*
After returning from a foreign trip,
Muthu asked his wife, "Do I look like a foreigner?"
Wife: "No! Why?"
Muthu : "In London, a lady asked me, 'Are you a foreigner?'...that's why."
Wife : ?????????
******
MUTHU & TOURIST*
A tourist from U.S.A. asked Muthu whether any great man was born in his village...
and Muthu said .. "No sir, only babies were born here."
***** *
MUTHU & HIS EXPERIMENT*
Muthu was doing an experiment with a cockroach.
First he cut off one leg and told it to "WALK! WALK!"
The cockroach walked.
Then he cut off it's second leg and told the same.
The cockroach walked.
Then he cut off the third leg and did the same.
Finally, he cut off its fourth leg and ordered it walk!
But the cockroach didn't walk.
Suddenly, Muthu said loudly,
"I found it. If we cut a cockroach's four legs, it becomes deaf."
******
MUTHU & DRIVER*
When Muthu was travelling with his wife in a motorized tricycle, the driver adjusted the mirror.
Muthu shouted, "You are trying to see my wife, eh? Sit in the back. I will drive."
******
MUTHU GOES TO HOTEL*
Muthu went into a hotel.
To wash his hands, he went to the washbasin.
Then when he had finished, he started washing the basin.
Seeing this, the manager asked what was he doing.
Muthu pointed towards the signboard"*WASH BASIN* "
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MUTHU & INTERVIEWER - FINAL PART*
Interviewer : "Just imagine you're in the 20th floor of a building and it's on fire. How will you escape?"
Muthu: "It's simple.. I will just stop my imagination."
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Oh... Lest I forget ............. the funniest...*
At a political rally, Muthu was arrested. Why ????????????
Because a lady journalist with a badge which read "*PRESS*" pinned on the right part of her blouse walked past him...
and he did it!
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This is the last scene.
This sunshine will go forever. But.. star and sun never meets.
Therefore she can only cry.
Because she was once fortunate and happy.
The baby snowman melts. Because she would be the only one sending in future.
The rainbow like sky.
The sun did not reflect on the water. But beautiful Orange.
On the other side too..
Getting darker.
Very bright now.
Somewhat sun is setting..
This is the cloud formed.
A little darker.
Touched. Despite tiredness last night, He turned up. There was a father and daughters, very loving. Father made a puddle of water especially for daughters to play.
Bright sky..
Hmm.
She is ecstatic..
Someone took the effort to personally wait for her downstair for an hour
Someone accompanied her to climb spider web
Someone sat on the beach with her to watch sunset.
Someone was by her despite revision was supposed to be the case.
Someone made her happy with his own jokes.
Someone is concerned about her safety.
Someone wished to see her home.
That someone..was there. =)
She should fear no more.
Well.. She has a company, joked, played.
This was how she realised everything's not granted always.
She just smiled.
Sunshine forever.?
Because the sun exist, No star would survive then.
No stars, Sun is there.
They may just be sun and stars.
So wide apart..
Misunderstand.
She is lethargic.
Smile.. She has a company.
One thing for sure,
Her views for him totally changed.
Thanks for accompanying me..
Grateful..
She wanted to write..
"I miss you."
Is it so difficult.?
My First Love
[Verse 1:]
Did you know that everyday is so much more amazing
Waking up right next to you it feels like im daydreamin
Never thought that, i could ever,
Love somebody the way that i love you
We've had our days of fightin breakin up and leaving
But you'd always make it right
Your smile made my heart begin
Heres your smell to it
Right into your head
and dont ever trade it
Baby i believe that we gon make it
[Chorus:]
Im so proud to say that you are my first love
When we together baby know that your the only one
When you get next to me and hold me closly
I know you love me
You make my story complete
Im so happy that i got you here to hold me down
I'll never break your heart
Aint going straight no way no how
Treasure for my beloved
Never betrayed trust
Always thinkin bout us
Baby im forever in love
[Verse 2:]
Oooo it feels so crazy when you wrap your arms around me
I place my ear against your chest
And hear your heart beat
Take good care of me
And show the reason
That i still believe our fairytale has just begun
If were in movie then dont nobody say cut
If i could be dreamin then let me sleep forever
Your so lovely and sweet like honey
There aint nothin that can chase away this feelin
[Chorus:]
Im so proud to say that you are my first love
When we together baby know that your the only one
When you get next to me and hold me closly
I know you love me
You make my story complete
Im so happy that i got you here to hold me down
I'll never break your heart
Aint going straight no way no how
Treasure for my beloved
Never betrayed trust
Always thinkin bout us
Baby im forever in love
I never thought that miracles could happen
But your living proof that he's up there listenin
And whenever im lost you help me find my way home
You tiring me back to your houseeeeeeeeee
Ooooooooooooo whoa whoa who who
im so proud baby
you are my...
:: That was before.. passed.
Tynisha Keli - I Wish You Loved Me
VERSE ONE:
Somethin, somethin as simple as me hearin' your name (hearin' your name)
Puts me, puts me in a place that i can't even explain (uh oh, noO i ain't never been here before)
I really didn't know back then but right now i'm totally sure
Baby, i know i'm your friend but i wanna be much more (o0oh)
I get butterflies when i see you comin', o0o boy you got me runnin'
This feelin' in my stomach tells me i should be your woman
Because your the only one who makes my fairy tale come true
CHORUS:
How can someone make me so sad, but still i only want them to stay
I wanna say i love you so bad, but i don't wanna scare you away
Please, i wish that you'll understand that i wanna be more than just your friend
I wish you loved me
VERSE TWO:
I see, i see you talkin' to them girls on the phone
I wish that i could tell them all to leave you alone
Really didn't know back then, but right now i'm totally sure
Wh0aa who0 that i wanna be much more
Boy this is why, i never really liked your girlfriends (why)
Never really gave them a chance (why)
Because I realized that i'm your woman, your woman
CHORUS:
How can someone make me so sad, but still i only want them to stay
I wanna say i love you so bad, but i don't wanna scare you away
Please, i wish that you'll understand that i wanna be more than just your friend
I wish you loved me
BRIDGE:
Said if you really love somebody, i mean really really really, really love someobody
Let me hear you say yeah, let me hear you say yeah, yeahh
If you really know you need them, and you know deep down you never gonna leave them
Let me hear you say yeah yeah, hear you say yeah yeah
CHORUS:
How can someone make me so sad, but still i only want them to stay
I wanna say i love you so bad, but i don't wanna scare you away
Please, i wish that you'll understand that i wanna be more than just your friend
I wish you loved me
Everything is going underground.
Who would dare to say I Really like you.?
Reluctance.
He who waits, might get a wanted result.
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Friday, April 25, 2008
Tata~~ This is her sweetheart she says~
She opened her eyes too wide. But.. winnie is always pretty like always.
And took another because the previous one seemed to have cut her head away.
And winnie is doing her PW.. She helped out too~
Doesn't winnie looked man?
Cut away again.. -_-"
Tata.. A proper one. Happy birthday~!
Inverted.. Mirror image. Does she look like a sister to her?
then another one.
This is the cake she had mentioned. Her feet and rubbish bin.. -_-"
cool?
Twist~!
Cute right?
She tried to look as cute~ Ah hahahs.. Looked terrible instead.. hahahs.
This is the toot look.. Housefly.
In uniform.. cute ma? Opps.!
Study until sleep.. =p
No comments.
A close up.?
Da~ My 2 sweet hearts.. but not the one whose having birthday too. =)
She is..?
Haha..
Escaping from my camera? take that.!
Ending with me.! hees!
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*smile.
It is already the next day.
Her smile still hang brightly like the "Darlie" toothpaste.
She is missing yesterday already.
It was too fun,
too little time,
too reluctant to go home.
Well, the purpose for 2 posts is, agenda.
One word she will say:
Confused.
Because his answer of turning up seemed so incomplete.
Is it rejection or agreement?
Maybe she had typed in a way that she had decided the answer.
Well, she want to go... Pasir Ris beach.
Yeah~
Because she need to go there for research
Lastly, bringing that heavy unhappiness back to where it was.
Well, this do not belong to her anymore.
Maybe.. she will go along with him.
This is a chain of waiting.
She waits for his reply,
He waits for her reply.
It is all right to go alone too,
Her purpose was to play swing~
She will bring the chocolate that sweetheart gave.
She will climb the spider web,
She will walk on the wishing rock by the sea,
She will play the alien ship,
She will play flying an end to another.
She will be so happy.
The only difference will be alone or with accompany.
She wish to go along with sweetheart.
That's because she has only accompanied one.
Or will it be him? or him?
Lols, she is confused too~!
But she feels the burden to him,
asking him along
She has request far too much.
He has his own things to do.
Yet dragging him along would spoil his plan.
Still, she will wait for his answer to attend or not.
She thinks she is in for rejection. =(
Poor him.
Still waiting for an empty screen hand phone.
She has yet to reply.
Said, this is chain.
So does everyone understands now?
This is a confusing agenda.
Ah.. Mid year examinations are coming forth..
She has to sit in the cold and stern hall.
Yet to do revision,
Yet to be prepared for it.
She is going dead.
Uh oh..
Oh star, why so lonely today?
Where are your friends?
You are so bright in the sky today.
No worries, you have her with you.
She will never abandon you
For she is part of you.
Her hand is so empty
without him, him and sweethearts.
Now she knows regardless of locations,
Sweethearts will be there. =)
Love is not just a rose
There is still uncomfortable punishments.
Happy, misconception,
Increasing as time goes.
A fading love is like a scar
Being hurt has a saying,
Pain will then find happiness.
Let our heart take a rest.
Sand which you can't hold
Let go.
Him whom you can't hold
Let go.
::This is extracted from the song.
--Translator: owner of this blog.
She is the only one reluctant to let him go.
Time to. now.
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Her sky full of stars~
she wish, she wish,
Happiness always.. =) :) ;) x).... ^ ^
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Happy birthday sweethearts!!
It was their birthday.
Unforgettable..
She went to find one of sweethearts.
Sincerely bought a small cake as a present.
There she was singing the song alone with her.
This is so cool.
They had dinner together,
Studied together, took some photos together.
Joked together.
Lols.
In anyway, sweethearts made her day so beautiful today.
Hand in hand, like before, listening to her talk.
"Bullying her"
She even gave her box of chocolate.
Everything took place in a cosy house of sweetheart.
She shall show the picture soon.
Lols. She is so happy today
Sweetheart never fail to make her smile.
This is for you:
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to wiie, qian,
Happy birthday to yooou..
xp
Love them so so much..~
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Thursday, April 24, 2008
So this is it.
So the most hurtful expression can be emotionless.
So the most cruel image can be the sweetest.
I do not know how to love you even more
Only shadows as my company.
So I was the most lonely, still missing you so much.
So I was most miserable, unable to face myself
Nothing seemed to have affected you
So I will pretend, just like you.
She held her hand high..
Trying to reach the greyish sky..
Is this happiness?
Well, She has lost hers.
So, this was not what she wants.
But she could do nothing but watch him go.
There may be tears when she held another guy's hand and walked away..
But she looked back at him leaving his shadow that was left for her to reach.
So what if she could touch his shadow?
He is gone.
So what if she sat on the same beach which he once was with her?
She is alone now.
So what if she has someone by her?
He is not him.
"If you continue to talk about him, I will have to spank you.." her best friend said.
Good gesture but never accomplished task.
Silent cries that never was known.
Because she is the only one who knows how she feels.
He told her, "Can I write our names on the beach since we are here?"
She said no then.
She should return to write them down.
Even alone,
She will walk down the road.
This is where she belongs.
She smiled as she looked at her reflection.
So she still exist..
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Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Know something.?
Lols.. Never expected someone so faithful to her too..
Is it another illusion.?
He told her that he will wait for her.
Not virtual, she supposed..
He had waited a year..
At least he loved her whole-heartedly.
An all rounded love..
She will not be a back-up sweetheart.
She can trust, can she?
He will not be a substitute.
After the unwanted love subsided.
Maybe.
They can study in the same Jc that she want with him.
Maybe.
They can go home and to school together.
Maybe.
They can really be together.
Being loved is better than loving one.
Well.. Maybe she shall give herself and him a chance.
This is her last warmth that she can find and depend on..
Her last straw perhaps..
Everything will subside..
Since she was nothing in the past.
She will be something in the future.
Love is an unconditional givings..
His unconditional givings to her..
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Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Definition of right decision.
She was unsure of her decision..
To large extent of extreme.
He told her this then:
Every decision is right as long as you are willing to face the consequences that you have decided.
That is a right decision.
Stubbornness is the key to attraction..
It would return as a bigger problem if one escapes from it.
She had them right..
Even though she had tears falling,
Getting emotional haywire in the class without concentration.
She lost her ability to express her sadness.
The moment a friend asked her and hit the bull's eye about her unnatural behavior today
Her tears flows again..
And she wrote this:
10.45am
She said she left nothing.
Ironically, she is often a third party, a back-up sweetheart.
She chose to be alone in this quiet day, watching the sky that she thought was once her but were never hers.
It is still vividly in her thoughts "wish you happiness" despite the fact that she had emptied all inbox and information about.
This perhaps is the path she chose.
To leave smiling away with unseen tears to find her way out of misery.
Did she love?
All virtual.
Stars often stands alone having a distance from another.
Does this means loneliness ever?
Clutches her fist tightly, place it close her heart;
This is what she has thought she lost yet she had never possess.
A cup ice cream cheered up..
Is this her new habit?
Now, she understands.
As long as happiness accompanies,
Nothing is a problem.
It is absolutely fine to be friend.
As long as she is willing to let go now.
No point pushing away knowing it would still be a missing
Otherwise, all unhappiness will come back.
She was not willing let go as she likes him.
Fearful of knowing that another relationship beginning
No point to hold on nothing belongs to her either.
Now she lets go.
Everything appears fine.
No misery.
This is happiness.
First love..
I remember to love because you taught me how.
Thank you.
Love is unconditional providence of happiness to another..
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Monday, April 21, 2008
It feels so tired..
Something so near yet this far..
Didn't promised to let go months ago?
Sigh..
There, in front of the protected shelter she used to be present..
Forgotten how long it was when she had last went.
Her tears flow like water..
Heavy hearted yet helpless.
Then..
A butterfly was found there..
She squatted down and examine..
It flew with the gust of wind which frights her..
The tears just wipes away with the wind.
It was then her hair flew up gently as she slowly sat down on the floor.
It was then she realised the butterfly's life has ended.
At least she's alive.. for being alive,
Every obstacle could be resolved.
She smiled and walked away..
Ever since then, she never returns.
Till now..
She cried again..
Going back to the same place..
Dance to the tune..quietly.
Until the bell rings..
Refused to accept the offer of anyone..
At last, she fell down the stairs..
Gladly, She didn't faint and manage to get help soon.
Is this stubbornness?
She lost her protection..
Seeking another shelter..
Would she be able to find one?
Or is this a fall again..
The fragile crystal ball has shattered again..
The stars in it spread throughout the floor..
Wishes scattered..
Is this a wait to the truth?
Or a wait to nothing..?
Silence filled the air.
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Saturday, April 19, 2008
This was a movie in a neighbourhood..
With your presence,
Atmosphere tensed,
Air thickened.
I am so sorry..
I looked so abnormal yesterday..
Cause' I am too used to being there.. alone.
Does myself worth to use "I"?
I am just a simple she.
Utterly affected by the show..
Sorry..
She had decided everything for herself..
She is sorry to leave you with no chance of deciding even..
She is a simple girl, an ordinary one.
She is gullible
Not intelligent
Silly at times.
Does she worth the high price?
If she does, why?
You have thought before?
She is so silly..
Knowing everything would end..
Yet...
She gave up totally.
She knows pursuing something not hers is wrong.
Another her is waiting..
She is only a third party who ruined the party.
She is sorry and guilty..
She is sorry to her.
She wished for nothing but happiness and excellence in studies.
She worths nothing to your heart too..
Everything was decided..
She thank sky for granting her wish..
Looked at you so gently..
For she knows this pretty face does not belong to her.
She knows it perfectly..
Do not be confused
For everything was decided.
She need not worry.
For there always be another her there.
Thank you..for everything.
"When you wish on a shooting star, it came true."
"When another shooting star comes.."
"Would you still wish for the same wish that had came true?"
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Friday, April 18, 2008
Today is our school's sports day..
Well, the last one too since I am graduating soon.
I was watching my Dance juniors doing cheer leading.
So adorable.
A pity Qianyong, Winnie and Jessie are not here to see their achievements.
They were so cute!
I have gotten their numbers too.
Just in case, they need me during next year's SYF.
And I could ask them out too!
Honestly speaking, I enjoy their company so much..
At least, they treat me like part of them.
A little guilty at times that I was so fierce to them.
In anyway, I would love all of them all the same~!
Oh.. Coming back to the topic, I brought books to the stadium and mug..
This is so cool though I hated when people walk over my books..
*There was a saying that walking over books will be down with bad luck or turn stupid.*
Okay.. I admit.. I am very superstitious..
Then I kept asking around about the questions that looked alien to me.
I helped my form teacher opened up a jelly.. *form teacher-Mdm Paik
Then she turned and say.. "I feel so pampered.."
*laugh..
She is cute.
She even said that she should have brought her papers along so that she could do her markings.
However, Lols.. I realised I have a new BAD habit..
Anyone in contact me within an arm's length, *in good mood, I would have the urge to poke their face.. Lols..
Zzz!! Guess what I did..??!! When Mdm Paik was having a conversation with someone near me, I poked her face..
She looked shocked and turn to me..
"Do you know it is very rude to poke people's face.........."
This is the only thing I took note of~
Oh my god.. I actually poked her face!!!
I feel so guilty..
Then I shunned one side. Avoiding standing near her. I'm so afraid she will be angry with me.
I forgot to apologise too..
Bad student..
After that, Minmin and Huiyu went home..
Xueyan and I went to buy ice-cream and walked 2 bus-stops away before boarding one.
Lols.. Bus 82 was full of people. So we took bus 80..
Then talked and went home soon.
Well.. Remember that I had the ice cream spilled on my shirt..ZZZZ
Then Dawson said I had shit on my shirt..
That is a little mean.
Well, it concerns shit mummy--"Jocelyn" on me..
So I do not mind at all. Hahas..
Since I'm part of shit family.
Bought a little grocery and went home.. Later mug again.. Lols..
Minmin took my picture..ZZ.. She even posted on her blog.. I'm known to public.. AHH~~!!!!
My mid-year is coming.. Zzz
Mr Krishnan said that he will be able to tell us where we stand soon.. Lols.
I will work hard.
All in all today is a beautiful day.. though I feel a little unwell.. Lols..
Shall end here~
Can I say sorry here?
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Tomorrow is the last day before the time struck twelve,
Where everything begins and ends at the same time.
It is a fear fusion yet an arouse romance.
How I wish it never ends.
But things will never always goes the way you want it too.
All I could do was to cherish every single second that I could proudly say I am your beloved.
Trying every struggling moment to get your attention before I can never do it again.
I may cry, miss, love, reluctantly leave you.
Nevertheless, I would still be that one girl who had watch your first sunrise, first shooting star, first tour throughout most part of singapore.
The girl whom still love you so deeply no matter what is of you.
Regardless of all consequences.
This is my love for you.
My heart thumps so hard when I hear your voice.
I was so shy when you said you miss me..
Sigh..
I still love you dear..
No matter what, I will definitely cherish every moment with you tomorrow.
I will be very punctual.
I bring you to the place where I always wanted to share with you.
Yeah!
Promise me always that you will smile on..
Never a sinful smile again..
Leading a happier life than ever..
A brand new life with a perfect girl..
Holding a heart well protected in a circle.
Be a memory always..
Letting go bygones.
Dear..
419455164771968
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Wednesday, April 16, 2008
I cried yesterday.. upon seeing your blog..
Not because her..
Because I see your love for me..
Which I had never discover..
Aren't I silly..?
I wish I could give you a hug and tell you I'm sorry.
Writing you letters were what I could only do..
I trust you..
Time may reverse
My choice will still be you..
Even she was once in your heart..
I'm fine with it..
I feel so guilty..
What I wanted to do was to help you get together again.
In the end, I was the solely one who broke you up.
For now, I wish I could hold your hand and walk on..
For that day at least..
End of our world.
How I wish I could call you forever more.
It's ending so soon.
Things weren't going so smoothly either..
I'm lethargic.
Glad.. I have someone to count on..
Zzz.. I'm not in convenience to continue every word..
Shall continue if I can..
Bye.
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Monday, April 7, 2008
Juniors got closer with me~ Smile*
We gonna work hard, work hard!
For the coming concert, Buck up!
We smile everyday to welcome every brand new day..!
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You were upset those days..
Am I right.?
You held back your tears then..
Do you..?
You cried eventually..
I saw..
Do not cry, I said I'll be there..
And..
I reach them out to hold you..
But none reaches you..
I'm so sorry..
I failed everything..
I could not protect you.
But still..
I'm a clone..
A clone of her, isn't it.?
Now, I could not wait for you anymore..
Whatever you might face,
Smile?
Because this is irrevocable pain.
The more I love you, the more I am getting myself injured.
Because you never love me truly.
I'm not happier everyday.
Because you do not care..
Until too late..
I could not bring myself to hurt myself again..
For once, let me be selfish..
Since everything you have fabricated is virtual..
Leaving you..
You may be happy then..
Forever, I'm gone.
I will recover soon..
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Thursday, April 3, 2008
She say.. "We must be strong and stay happy always."
I guess in this way, we will be happy forever.
Precisely, why think too much.?
You told me that you want to be a friend of mine who will take care of me forever.
But could you?
Is it going to be an empty promise soon?
Mika.. We must stay strong..and we will..
I may not be a pretty girl but an ordinary yet not "visible" to people's eyes.
I could be the happiest happiest girl.
Give a portion of my happiness to everyone.
So everyone would wear a nice authentic smile in world.
Shouldn't we be happy like before?
But I must thank the unhappiness that has obviously show us what is happiness.
I..actually wrote you a letter..
The content will be revealed then.
Can I make you smile?
I..would really love to see a last smile from you.
Be it now or then..
I want to give you happiness before it's too late.
I've been busy.. I will work hard really..
Thank you.. Thanks everyone.. for your support..
The greatest joy is to have a great group of friends by me.
Thanks min, thanks xue, thanks hui, thanks ting.
Lols.. You said my hand is small and nice to hold. I felt a little warm in my face then..
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This is the last scene.
This sunshine will go forever. But.. star and sun never meets.
Therefore she can only cry.
Because she was once fortunate and happy.
The baby snowman melts. Because she would be the only one sending in future.
The rainbow like sky.
The sun did not reflect on the water. But beautiful Orange.
On the other side too..
Getting darker.
Very bright now.
Somewhat sun is setting..
This is the cloud formed.
A little darker.
Touched. Despite tiredness last night, He turned up. There was a father and daughters, very loving. Father made a puddle of water especially for daughters to play.
