Now..Silly right?
I find myself looking for you..
But why..
I shouldn't..anymore.
I wish there is an end.
But I don't feel like facing the fact..
Fact that you won't be there.
So there were tears.
It was tears..
Wearing my sunglasses, hoping that no one knows.
Remember? Tears made Light turn into sparkling stars.
Then, I look at myself going blur and smear.
The price of beauty scenery is disappearing.
Just like the mermaid who is reluctant to kill her beloved prince who is going to marry another girl.
And she is just a sister.
She would rather to turn herself into bubbles instead of killing him.
This was how silly we were.
Lethargic.
Knowing more of your love life only drains me.
Should I let go?
But.. I wish I never does.
I could never make it.
Let me cry my eyes out.
Deteriorate my right vision so I won't hurt so much.
Accept the fact I am not the one.
Tell me then.. tell me to give up.
There was just another girl by you.
Why am I so silly to hold on?
It is just too late to hold a heart well.
Break me down..
Nevertheless..
The one who touched my heart.
It has been long since I hear from you
It has been long since I have a heart to heart talk with you.
How I wish you always tell me what you used to say,
"recently, why is there a breakout in your face?"
Are you still keeping your long hair
Are you still going home early
Are you still biting your nails as usual
Oh girl, I miss you so tonight.
Dream, if what we had were dream
Then why would I be moved
Who, for who
For whom was I moved every seconds and minutes
The wind wouldn't tell me
The cloud passed by silently
In Dark night, he would get emotional.
Only one of stars in the sky said,
"She has fallen asleep, shouldn't you be resting too?"
Wind wouldn't tell me.
The cloud passed by silently
Heart beats has persuaded me
That's right, the one who moved my heart
Who is she?
She shall meet me in my dreams.
I am still holding to his hands without him.
The silliest girl in the world.
Can I still love?
Would I still gain love?
Every answer remain silent.
You have her.
I have my pillows.
They are all wet..
How can I fall asleep in the night?
When I lose you.. I had insomnia too..
I will accept the fact that I love you but need to forget you.
I will accept that you love me no more.
And I will accept that everything has ended.
She cries.
I shut down.
Cos' I can only see black and white now.
Let me cry and eventually forget.
I went to family outing.
To somewhat a BBQ party.
Our mother's day celebration.
But this is not over.. Second round is by me~ Lols
I feel like vomitting..
Zzz.
Gastritis again.
Jiejie so nice.. She consoled me.
I'm down.
Pictures, I will update soon.. =)
Hurt me as you might, I remained faithfully silly.
So tears are gift to beautiful world.
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