it's.. a rainy day. i'm tired. i got dance today. yeah.. and got to pa. but felt bad. hahas. cos' i missed the date with meimei. hahas. ya. then went to dance with my shuai ge didi. hahas. and back home at night. time passes this quick.
there will be a performance on 8 dec. anyhow arts. ya. hahas. can't dance for that.. kind of a pity. hahas. ya. i need rest badly. i'll be away to genting on 3 dec to 7 dec. ya. so the practices that they'll do, i can't go. and.. next week, i'll be away in malaysia again. hahas. this time, to do prayers with my mum, aunt and sis. ya. so, i'll be staying in pasir panjang on next saturday. till sunday. ya. later, with training. then i'll work and work to save up. ya..
i'm still into a book.--where i want to be-- quite a nice book. i've also listened to Qian Wo Shi Kuai [owe me ten dollars], mcfly's all about you. nice. hahas. and watched a little bit of 1 litre of tears. i kind of.. stopped knowing what i'm trying to do.
silly am i? i think.. i should be grateful that i'm living still. here.. right here. i might.. die of this stupid gastritis. gushing all the juice up to lungs, causing me even severe relapse. hyperventilation. where it ends me. difficulty, grasp for air, pains. losing consciousness and fell into coma. i..should be happy. that i have a caring family whom reached for me immediately when i need them. a once beloved "husband" whom once showered me with plenty of love. a group of close companions to hear me cry, laugh, shout, giggle. it's all here.. right here in the heart. is this..a signal? another warning of..going off soon. thinking too much here.
-the heart dropped a tear- i fear..
reluctance.. to leave. it's still beating. i'm glad. will you remember me?
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