i just don't get why.. it's cries.. this hard.. very hard. until..i feels too tired to do any other things.
i never regretted the path i chose. i know. even i were to have another chance to go back to the past.. do you know..
it's all appear vaguely in my mind how sweet we were. i just.. cried.. kept on.. till now.. the eyes don't feel like one anymore.
and wished to always.. to celebrate your birth with every joy. joyous to have you in this world. with your existence, i know i once lived. awaiting, to see the hopeful eyes of yours.. when i start taking out the gift that might surprise you, change your every expression. you're not a wanted to be forgotten.. a deep yet known footprints were left by you. say there this deep. irreplaceable. even it might be a past. you're the first. first love.
it scares me this hard to have umpteen dreams without you by me side. and it all come true. i wish i had never woke up.
i still yearn to dug up every memory spent with you. like we've toured all around singapore and got it so so familiar. to hold your hand tightly never let go. to hug you so tightly that i can feel your heart beating. to be able to touch your lips with gentleness imprints the love we have had and feel you inside me. every single view of you.. deeply.. here.
urge to hold you like a lost kitten who needs the warmth this deeply. i'm addicted to you
i don't know how to let go. with pressures and opposition of being together. i hide my feelings away. put it into deep sleep. never able to wake it up.
i know.. i will walk on.. just..like jessie says..give me one month more. i'm still yours. your girl. until the due expires, i'll leave. give me a moment of time. silly girl, always.
i want to be honest for the last time,
i love you..
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