i worked hard today. awarded with my $60~! hahas.. i'm in confusion. hahas.. but anyway. i know if this happens, it break away even easier. i just left a thin thread of likings towards him. i finally admitted. or even maybe, his gift, i will just pass it to him like his ex did when i was with him if he has a sweetheart now. and maybe the prepared gifts as well. he finally found someone of his heart. i should feel relieved. ya this is a mixture of relief and reluctance. but i should have got used to the life without him. so free. i had enough of being love maybe. yeah.
hey~ i got to know shane, a guy whose wearing captain's uniform yet is not. hahas. yeah. i feel.. hahas.. funny. he was so sotong~! hahas.. he actually hit the chair transport-er on our captain.. hahahas.. this is funny. it struck him so hard that he fell on his knees and almost teared. hahas.. poor boon wee.. he's the captain. and.. hahas.. shane~you guilty? hahas..
i really bu hao yi si.. i knocked onto him.. and then.. hahas.. his bottom.. zzz.. and. then.. he seemed to almost fell. i wanted to hold on to him so he won't fall but.. hahas.. held the wrong place. and that's the first time i ever.. hold a guy whose.. has no relations.. hahas.. i went blushing la~!! hahas.. i held his waist.. i did.. blush. hahahas.. let go at the moment i found the wrong one to hold. hahas. and.. i hahas.. apologised.. very idiot la~ hahahas..
and.. when he smile, i smiled brightly. zzz.. hahahas.. he toppled the high 10 stacked up chairs.. and when he tries to get them back in place, he pulled then first chair.. and.. *crrraaaaaaaackk.. he kind his sprained his back.. i wonder.. if he hurt himself. hahas.. and.. hahas.. funny.. hahas.. there was a slience.. then followed by laughter.. hahas.. can't stop laughing.. hahhas..
and i told him that he was lighter than me.. hahas. and asked him his weight. but he said, "hmph~ don't tell you later you laugh at me" hahaas.. hen funny. ahhaa. so.. i didn't get the information. ahahas.
he's one year older than me. and in hwa chong institute. hahas. it's a.. jc. hahas.. hen li hai o? hahas. direct entry to jc. haahs. ya. he only have psle cert when we talked about it. i laughed even more. but.. hen li hai i should say. genius. hahas. but.. he look like snoopy to me. and i told him. he say.. i look like a friend of his.
oh.. lastly.. hahas.. he wore something so funny. haahahas.. tops, casual wear. and a funny black leather shoes and socks. he wore something.. like more than ankle. still hen funny to me la~ hahahas.. sorry for telling this.. i don't mean to laugh. but.. you made my day. hahas
...i think.. i've hurt you. sorry
maybe. i'll see him again. ya.. shane tomorrow when i work. hahas. after dance. hahas.
mm.. i've got bruises.. ahahas.. and a small bicups.. hahas.. i worked too hard.. hurt and aches.. ahahhas..
my faults. apologetic. i don't know if it's jealousy anymore. or maybe.. it's a mixture of relief and reluctance of letting go. i don't know. but i know, i'm getting away. maybe..it's going off. i mean. love for him.
but it's really a pleasant day~~!!! hahas.. i laughed.. smiled. and my roughness.. hahas.. no more cute. hahas.. most... natural me. i found it.
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