A big decision.
i'm emo..
why does she have to die.?she's still...this young. i wished. i could replace her. so.. she won't have to. die.
cruelty. why must she know when she's having her happiest time..??
this..is my decision. i thought it.. hahas. he fell for her. judging from conversation. maybe. i'm sensitive. but a person can only hesitate for something that is in difficulty. yeah.. very sure. hahas. maybe. i finally realised i do love him. but.. it's too late. and.. i know i won't turn back? i can't. from the moment i announced to my family. to him, he's only left with guilt for me. just like what happened to her. jessie. he can start anew.
he can't hide anymore. the words. he love her. the fact, he fell for her. but.. to me, i should have gone. maybe. break off ties. like what i did before. every.. the pain won't stay. so.. i won't feel this hurt. no longer his sweetheart. no longer contacting him. not even a friend. a stranger. i should. from now.. i wished.. i'm her. the girl.. whom should experienced all the love and don't deserve death. --cries.
i'll give him.. everything. that i promised. the gifts. yeah. but by then.. i won't be there anymore. she'll be there for him. and maybe this time, i'll disappear. somewhere. have a peace of mind. and back new. no longer lingers the thread. the love. so.. he will..attain happiness. i'm gone...
i hope..when i visit the doctor. they'll tell me.. i left not much time to live. in progression of my illness. i hope.. so.. i'll know the truth.. i want to save her. if not, give the life span to patients. --cries. willing.. to sacrifice.. for them. for i know.. happiness is shared. let me. just give me.. 3 months. left.. contented.
for the preciousness of life, i'm willing to give up mine.
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