a visit to malaysia.
there.. we were. hahas.. my mum, aunt, cousin, sister and i went to malaysia actually got pictures la.. but.. don't feel like updating it. hahas
we went to stay over in my aunt's place. so that the next morning which is yesterday will make it more convenient for us to reach there. yupp. and then.. we went there asap.
the next morning, at 6.30 we catch a bus and reach clementi. ya. hahas. then from there we took the coach to reach the custom. from there, we took all the way to many places.
like. the coffee shop? to have a meal. wanton mee, milo. zzz. they ordered a lot. and it taste very different from singapore. ya.. and then we were like so tired. and slept.. while we travelled. there was a destination where we saw a bit flooded. we have to walk on the bricks to across. but out of the 3 to 4 temples we went, we went to the restaurants to have our lunch. zzz. and then, back to shop for some local products. ya. and had our dinner. then back to singapore. it was raining there.
i just.. got little nostalgic. ya.. upon the window. i saw the raindrops. look more like tears to me. shooting stars they were. ya. flowing down the window this simple, this easy, this free.
i wish.. i wish. i were them.
and i finished my book. that "where i want to be." quite a sad ending. as in.. she pursue what she wants. and leave him.
i came home with mrt.. using.. red line. from clementi mrt to jurong east.. and from there, to yio chu kang. i can't help feeling this weak.. passed by.. yewtee. kranji. marsiling. everywhere. it's the momory.. how long. and.. along the path.. i just went to everywhere.. he left.. left his footprints everywhere. and when i got home. with the nostalgic message he said, gave me the courage to confess. all my heart felts. i just went on crying for maybe.. 1 to 2 hours. and look like a goldfish in the morning. this is lucky.. the 2nd time. struck me with another relapse. not deadly.
raphael sms-ed me in the night. ya.. and at least.. he's there when i cried. and jiaxian too. i just.. cried on. till the next morning. ya.
i'm going away again.. didn't expect this fast. ya.. zzz.. on 30th nov, going to pasir ris.. out for camp. with my didi and then.. only be back on the 2nd dec. but on 3rd, going overseas again. i wished.. i could stay.that will be 8 days then.. that i'll be away.
on the 15th. i hoped.. i will be able to have the courage providing all the joy for him. cheers him up. at least.. to leave without regrets. regrets..
maybe.. ya.. so i will set my mind in peace too. to be able to put a full-stop for this year.. the memorable one. and certainly hoped.. that when i go into another instituition, i'll be happy. get on with new life.
i can't help feeling.. this sad. hoping that i'll leave this school for new life. yet sadness lingers. affection lingers.. busy my whole year out.. cry and shout as long as i want to. cry.. cry. i need.time to release them. i need to know.. hear someone. advice..
i'm always a lost silly sheep going in circles, not knowing what to do.
and i am the only one who can heal myself. it's acceptance, that is.
may be love is this profound. we can't say anything. but to agree with what the heart says. when you oppose it, you'll experience heart shattering.
even if i want to see you, my heart cries, i could only watch you from far. heartless. disregards it cos' i promised you. i will keep it. right in heart.
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