her words.. maybe nothing big. but.. is.. from her.
"i did something out of rashness.. which i refer to, i told him something i shouldn't have said.. all my words. sounded so down, right to the bottom.. maybe just.. hais.. i don't know what to say..
it hasn't stop.. when will you stop all these to torture both of us??! still, the destination hasn't stopped.
i'm confused.. totally confused. what have i done wrong? maybe.. the only one suffers one who doesn't let go.. i can't escape. who the hell am i now? i'm now nothing but a shell without a soul. not a moment of peace inside me.. i seemed to be wondering about..i am not someone whom i used to be.. no longer. how can i get myself out of this mess..? i felt disgusted by my own actions. unlike other people whom are innocent. who am i now..? what shall i do now.. where can i hide myself then? down right stupid me.
i wonder how he thinks.. maybe escape? escape from everything, or say his heartfelt words.. maybe, let go he'll say? well.. i'm nothing.
let me be blur forever.. dropped all and leave it to happyness maybe not brood over it might just ease everything. i be an eraser, all the things written, erase...
sorry for being such an emotional one. maybe.. if you really have something to say, just speak up.. at least, i know what i can do. i'll be... back to myself soon.. and.. i have something important to tell you personally.. when you finish looking through this post, i'll tell you. not negative. i promise. sorry. "
this was what she said before she ends, and heart stopped beating fast. a sigh of relief.
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