what am i doing.. trying to do rather? hahas.. i nickname of "what can i do when i see no more love" and personal message "misses is sickness-heartful or heartless"
i don't know what the hell happened to me.. but.. mm.. i.. think..maybe..just don't feel as precious as before. mm.. crazy.. or am i not in the mood.. i hope everything reverse.
i guess.. he had sensed it.. don't know if it's.. lost feelings of possession or rather.. lost his presence, mm.. i'm still figuring out.. mm.. i certainly hope everything would go smoothly as before. as i liked him. i want to see him. want to know how i feel about him. want to know how he feels about me. i know..will be sad to let him see this.. but even so, i wish he would understand.. mm.. understand how i feel.. so..he won't be pondering what wrong he did.. nothing wrong. it just lies with me.
i shouldn't even listen to emotional songs. i hear the songs.. mm.. feel so apart suddenly.. i..err..mm.. just.. maybe i can do something to lead my heart to something i wish for. maybe. i don't feel trusted. maybe, i'm still a kid to him. or he doesn't like what i've done sometimes. but. ya.. i just need understandings and love? well.. maybe.. i'm at fault after all. well. out of my control. well, i see what i can do. mm.. need time bas. i really wish to see him. so as to tell him face to face how i feel, to seek understanding. love him like i used to. mm..
from the beginning to love him more.. start from the bottom. love is to accept him for what he is. i hope.. truly he'll know, i only love him. no more doubts on me. may our love lasts.
though i might be alone now. but.hope in every moment of future, i have his shadows in every flashbacks and memories. a kid in heart.finding her soul mate.whom truly understand her.to overcome every obstacles they'll encounter. hearts not in twos but beat as one.
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