somehow.. i really don't know what i'm trying to do.. hais.. hahas.. i just saw his blog.. and like.. hmm. made him feel sad and sandwiched him.. hais.. i'm really sorry honey..
hmm.. anyway, i'm just simply silly.. a little bit like.. moody these days.. frustrated just got out of nowhere.. remember-- last saturday.. was a happy day.. i didn't think much.. hahas.. then.. early in the morning.. my elder brother said.. "hey.. he's going out with you so no time for me.. hais.. enjoy your day with him!" yupp.. initially i thought this was the case.. got so high in the morning.. hahas.. do everything to prepare.. last thing i would think of is.. he actually tell me that he's going out with parent to see doctor.. - right, i can't be unreasonable at all.. i told myself.. it's absolutely okay~! =) and.. i heard this sentence only.. forgetting the sentence he said yesterday-- "i might go out with my friend yupp" guess what..? some girl named ivy sent her an sms to go out on weekends.. what can i say.. jealous? don' be silly..-told myself.. happy initially.. ended up in great disappointment.. even got concert tickets to watch it with him.. zz.. gladly, i've got my sister.. - i did it on purpose.. to make him jealous.. tell him i might go with guys..- even quarrel in the night with him.. gave him attitude.. that i really trying to protest.. =(
that very saturday.. he didn't go out with me.. with someone.. maybe brandon, his friend.. or his new friend ivy.. i don't mean "tell me everything.. you must report..!" i don't mean that.. yet.. nothing said.. how worry can i get.. who the *** did he went to.. honestly.. i get jealous quite easily.. hais..
fine.. sunday was the day.. finally time of our own.. -yeah~- funny.. my younger brother came along.. reject? no way..! want to get tongue-lashing arhx? hais.. it's okay.. still have him around.. going out.. hais.. i really don't know what's best to say ya? hahas.. well.. all i can do is forget what happened.. go out happily.. but ended up.. saddened.. he may not know.. but there was once.. where he was very very little harsh on his tone.. i got really sad.. really really sadddened.. that i kept quiet though it's a happy occasion to go out with him.. and that i really happy he watch harry potter whatever whatever with me-*opps.. forget name le..- enduring that stupid acting up gastric pains.. all along quiet.. and lastly.. gotten him to be emo with me.. i really penniless sobs =( if i can, i would rather i pay food for myself.. don't dare to tell him i'm hungry.. hahas.. he spent a lot on me le.. sobs.. enduring.. till end of the show.. i thought it through.. perhaps.. i have to care.. need to contribute.. not him only.. so.. stopped attitudes.. with happy face.. smiled.. still left a little questions.. kept in there.. yupp..
anyway till now.. i really not much confident in relationship.. if it can really go on.. maybe i just stop all these just after sometime.. who knows..hais.. some promises, to him, meant to be empty.. "sorry.." Is it his apologies and temporary guilt? hais.. nevermind..
hmm.. anyway.. love really need trust.. i gotta trust him.. and feel apologetic that i actually suspected him.. i'm okay.. should be cause by my thinkings.. slowly change my thoughts.. he has his reasons to do something of his own.. some time of his own.. not sticking to him forever like glue.. though is love him forever like candy.. also.. showing attitude is very very much a wrong wrong.. hahas.. he need to be respected.. just like he did.. to public.. i apologise honey.. sorry.. though i promised.. i'll continue to trust you, keep my promises..
in the end.. i apologised to him on last sat.. i'm not experienced in love got to learn slowly.. and happy that.. he forgive my nonsense.. and to be okay.. hees.. he did everything.. for me.. hahas which is happy.. thank you honey.. just like i say, i would continue to love him for life.. and.. lastly.. sorry to make you sad.. =) don't sad okay.. muacks.. zzz.. as if talking to him.. and writing on purpose.. hahas..
kkx la.. end le.. otherwise.. some people going to throw tantrum.. zzz -youngest brother i mean..
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