hmm.. it was kind of hard to accept at first but soon.. hmm.. i know i could not be bad..
i'm really feeling quite bad that i actually bullied him.. as in.. he wants to play and is a "no, no".. where got so unreasonable de.. ahahhahax. and a moment.. i felt left out.. but come to think of it.. time has to be balance... hahaha..
even if he dislikes talking on the phone, he endures.. and even if i want his company, he tries to be there for me.. more than enough le.. i just got to realise that some guys, really prefers own personal space.. and when girls starts to complain that they spent too little time on us, they felt that it is sufficient.. and girls tend to share more talks.. hahahax.. but i just found out that girls have to be selective when they share with their boyfriends.. if you really want to pour everything, piles and piles, suggestions: look for girls!!! hahahahax..
since he doesnt like to talk on the phone, i try my best to talk to him in person.. <- guys prefers to face to face talk perhaps? hmm.. hees.. and also.. remember when there are times when girls starts to throw tantrum out of sudden, even if it was a few minutes ago that they were smiling at you? and guys seemed so helpless and felt, "you're ridiculous!" but actually, there are reasons behind it.. like me, i just wanted to have a nice talk, but well, he did other things.. unable to communicate, don't know how to express, we threw tantrum~ zzz.. see..? mars vs venus.. hahhaha..
another thing is, i have no rights to control their freedom.. haahax.. not directly.. indirectly. like i was kind of silently protesting, "i dislike you playing computer!" it was obvious, you see.. who can ignore when your girlfriend starts to throw tantrum? hahaha.. but ya.. maybe i should give him some time of his own.. yup.. if it goes on, he'll never tell me that he's playing games when i dislike it.. yupp.. i don't want things to turn out so "stone".. yupp.. from now, i should remind myself that while he does his things, i should do things fo my own.. yupp
anyway.. i learnt to be more caring.. thanks to jeanne jiejie.. hmm. hahahax.. back to normal bax.. at least i come to know that, it is not him whose trying to make things difficult.. it was me.. hahahax.. i have to give in.. too demanding.. well, hahahahax.. hmm.. hahahahx.. my experience!
i love you honey.. heex.. more understanding, better results.. heex.. obstacles to obstacles, our bonds will only get better.. heex.. i'll be understanding~! heex.. muackx.. baobeii forever.. loves..
today..
youngest brother.. hais.. i really find him real annoying..zzz.. not on purpose.. i tried liking him.. i used to like him a lot too.. but he became so overbearing.. is it me or him.? hais.. hmm.. it was like, he likes to ask questions but not really important.. like as, a question that was not supposed to ask, it is understandable.. yet.. hais.. and some kind of sarcastic remarks he always say that made us really mad.. i wish i could scold him hard.. but mum is always siding him.. he's a good boy who does housework without complains.. but yet so overbearing.. haix..
hm.. anyway, he wanted to play computer out of sudden.. but then, i promised my younger brother to let him play at 10pm. he just came and said, "i want to play.." but i'm still on something.. they were playing maple this morning.. and what do they expect.. everyday.. long hours.. hais..
i just told him that he used long hours to play maple.. but he shouted back that he only played for short hours.. hell.. what can i say.. i just told him to shut up cos' i knew he'll continue and continue and continue nagging.. but he complained to my mum.. zzz.. in the end.. i got scolded.. that i should not be so overbearing to held on to computer.. what's wrong with me then??? they used more than me~! hais.. i begin to dislike him more and more..
anyway.. i just saw my meimei send me a comment that she sang me songs and i ask her to keep quiet and sleep.. hahahax.. and sees me everyday made her felt bored.. hahahax.. she know i like her yet don't like me.. but just love me.. <- contradicting isn't it? hhahahahax.. yupp.. love her too.. she's cute.. > <
by the way, i wrote a lot le worx.. tomorrow going out with deardear heex.. and badminton o.O i forgot to tell him.. don't know if he wants to come along.. ahahahahx.. loves.. muackx..
end here la.. byebye~! update next time..
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