Don't treat me too well.
Because I may not be able to treat you as well as you do.
Don't try to read my mind.
Because I want to keep myself within.
Just at times, I think.
People like me is too scary.
You can't distinguish who you are.
That myself I never know.
Until one day.
I feel bad, feel lost.
I don't know where I'm heading either.
Maybe, I lost my trust.
Because of the past.
I just want to find someone reliable.
To hear me..
I can't expect anyone to trust my words 100%
But I just want them to trust what I say.
When I tell the truth, no one believed.
When I tell a lie, everyone else believed.
Staying what I am now,
Only makes me sink deeper.
I just need a word of trust.
To trust myself for once.
To trust others for once.
Thank you so much.
For being there when I need a pair of listening ears.
I can no longer differentiate what is love and what is friendship.
The only thing I know is..
I don't want to lose it.
Sorry for being selfish.
I miss Qian.
She's the only one who trust me completely.
Whatever I said..
100%.
I say that people are selfish.
But the most selfish one is right here.
I shivered.
At the sight of every move.
I killed myself instantly.
That bleeding wound.
Bloody knife..
Evil smile.
All myself.
That handful of blood..
Dripping bit by bit.
In front of the mirror.
Nothing I can hide.
A person like this.. worth?
I can't see your face..
I only see that quiet you crying..
Hush..
Just a hug..
Our surroundings..turned bright..
No more darkness, you are kept within..
I just want to see the blue sky that has every parts to be happier..
It's okay..
I'm still well and alive. I just want to be happy.
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