her tears flows down her cheek..
i could only watch her.
a few words of console yet..
unknown of my capability of succession.
i could not say much.
because i could only help her this much.
my plight is just like her.
i hope her wish will come true.
and i thought i always knew everything.
i thought.. i knew he likes me..
outcome is a cruel fact.
i know.. we're thousand miles apart.
like the stars and earth.
only now that i know,
stars cannot get near ice.
it will melt and vanish into vapours.
i should be thankful that i can feel you.
i'll just stand far apart from you.
watch over you.
i wish you.
here.. i finally went to see a doctor. she wants to complain my school for neglecting students' health.
funny.. just because of me.. T-T it is nothing serious~~! honestly speaking the truth.. i'm only there to get medicine~ she said that the school can't keep us for studies until 4 plus then our lunch. but then.. mr krishnan is kind.. he let us out for food. i'm deadmeat.. it's all my fault. if i don't get medicine, the school will not be complained. is all my fault..
oh.. she said i had an appointment on 10th march. i wondered. she said she might refer me to the hospital if i don't get better and.. then.. the hospital will put a long tube.. insert into stomach.. and...
Gosh!! imagining again.. i won't run wild.. promise.
even if i get to the hospital. i will remain silent. i won't tell my mummy or daddy. i will go by myself and be a strong girl.
i had conflicts with snow. know.. i think she thought i'm snatching min from her. but i don't. cause' i only left min, the best friend of friends in the school.. i just need to talk. i'm sorry.. for giving you cold shoulder, snow. i'm bad. i don't know how to talk to you either. i'm so sorry..
here.. mr quek, my geography teacher is going to take me off my duty of being a representative for geography. what a failure. i failed to complete my duty. sigh. failure..
tell me now.. i failed to be a good daughter to quarrel with my mummy. i failed to be good girlfriend in the past. i failed in my studies. i failed in my health.. i failed in friendship.. now, tell me.. what else is coming up.. i shouldn't be here in the world in the first place right? because i provide only sadness to the world. i bring no life to the world. i shouldn't exist. i shouldn't.. i so sorry everyone..
i thought i knew everything. everything could be under controlled. but i don't.
i won't..hurt anyone anymore le. sorry.
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