today.. hais.. go alone. hahas.. stupidity.. hahas.
i told my junior to wait for me in tampines, i waited at pasir ris. hahas.. lols. in the end, her family kept her company. she has to go along with her parents..zzz. i wished my brother came along. zzz.
quite interesting. hahas. know more about the courses.. and finally decided what i want to do too. hahas. psychology. to be a psychologist. otherwise, biomedical? quite nice. heh.
i'm selfish. arts.. i know my topic. but just can't help getting upset that teacher blurted out my ideas. it's good to share. but at times, when everyone hasn't decide on the studies that they want to research on, she blurt out, it only means to use the same topic, same idea. hais. however, this time, i found a better idea. but at a risk. unlock my lost card number to borrow books.. die.. quick quick use, quick quick return and lock. lols.. not telling you my topic first. hahas
mm.. silly. i kept going to the wrong direction like an idiot. hahas..
mm.. i think i have to reject meiqi le. her invitation to church. need to work for my studies. though she has a point to study in a condusive environment, but sacrificing 6 hours is definitely not worthwhile. i'm sorry to say that. but my studies comes first.. nothing else except studies and family. at least i can have 2 hours of distractions, but 4 more hours to study. hahas. so.. really. hais. all is work work work.. no choice.. sorry meimei..
mm.. tired. it was in pasir ris.. i didn't know the water that flows down my cheeks so naturally were tears. i missed him. the past. it is the memories that caused it. he's gone. the one i used to love. not someone of now. the similarities between seeing him now and past are appearance. the heart, the character whom i've used to know has became so strange to me. on the road as of now, he became a mere stranger. when did he slipped off without a notification? just the smiles he used to have and as of now, it's different. he's gone.
gosh.. another person said.. "what if i say i like you, how would you react?" mm.. to this question.. i don't know. i can only say.. phobia. i don't wish to take him as a substitute of "his" old-self. i won't. as of now, i only know o levels. mm.. hey.. can you wait until our o levels finishes before we talk about it? i don't want to get confused and hurt since i'm recovering from pains. phobia of relationship.. mm.. ya.. sorry to hurt you.. but.. wait? work hard. your parents would want you to score too.. hahas. i hope..i'm imagining things. think too much.
sobs.. i was rude to dad. mm.. hais.. apologies~ later go in say sorry.
quote of today(qn): why does people only realise their mistakes and admit/apologise after making them happened.?
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