zzz.. how i wish were some express smart kid. NA's so behind time. we have a lot to catch up. i have no time to let anything obstruct my ambition. i want to be a psychiatrist. a master degree in NUS. yes. psychology course. i'm not going to poly. aiming for jc, must get in. so i can get into U. and moreover, i need to get my flying colours result to jc. then another excellent and head to university. even if it cost my life to get them, i must.
here i go with my agenda: set good timetable so i can cope with my work and learn from failure. yes..failure. then get more practices. fulfill criteria.
i..rejected him.. sorry.. i need full concentration.. sorry to promise you that you should give me some time to think over. sorry to disappoint you. now, my only focus is on studies. moreover, if get into jc, i must never get into one too. i will die from it if i have one. i'm so sorry "r". nothing is more important than my studies now. the fact that, i fear relationship. my phobia of it. the fact that i have no confidence in guys who can cherish girls well at this age. the fact that i make sure nothing traumatise my studies. i'm deeply apologetic. sorry. you can find someone better than me. i don't wish to see you wait for me with high hopes and return with empty hands. it's not my time yet to get into one. i'm sorry. please forgive me. i experienced months of waiting and ended up with a broken heart. find someone who cherishes you. sorry!
determine for good results~ yeah. i'm getting ready.. 273 days~ bleahs.
this was what happened this week.
i had another relapse. due to stress. my teacher, mr krishnan advised me to do my undone work as i didn't manage to do it on time. in the end, i cried until i had another relapse. zzz.. what's worse. i had one leg temporary paralysed. which scared the wits out of me. that was sometime after relapse. then.. i almost fainted, but that night, i had fever. and until now, it's not recovering well. i'm dying. lols.
i won't allow this week's history to repeat. i'll try until it works. prove to them that i can get into jc! if you can't, then you must! yeah~ i will make schedules until it works well for me to finish my work on time. just watch me guys. hmph~! xp ---> snob~~ *gomen nasai!
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