subconsciousness
honestly speaking. i felt out of your life for too long. it's extremely weird..to say sweet nothings to you again. i'm confused in my heart..too.
mm. i don't know why. ever since the trip from pasir ris, i've been crying. and in the morning, unwillingly packed my bag. got the tie from nu er. hahas. and she treated me donuts and bubble tea. i gave the cake to him. as a birthday gift.
mm. i really upset when i went there to see him. and i saw his parents on my way there. hahas. honestly speaking, i like his parents.. hahas. don't know why. just the first look jiu hen like le.
then.. i passed him the gifts. and told him i still love him. but.. i felt weird. ya.. feelings..
anyway... almost 3 am. hahas. i.. need to see doctor le. sharp pain in stomach.. kept breaking out cold sweat when this happens. can't even talk. and the lungs.. burning away.
maybe one day.. if i pass on, please don't be shocked. i will cherish my time with you guys de. hahas. love you all~~ hahas. just come for my funeral, i'll be more than contented. remember me guys. but don't be sad.
to say i love you to someone dearest to you is so so sweet. but to someone whom you may love yet so distant, it's weird.
maybe, i give you a lot of surprise from the past. now i wouldn't able to. if i were to provide you with a lot of surprise, and when i grow old, ran out of ideas, could no longer give you surprise. would you love me like you used to be?
i'm just an insignificant character who once appeared in your life. even if i die right now, it doesn't matter. cos' i have no "hold on"s in the world.
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