jiejie.. i need you so much.. right now..
i know.. you knew i'll have a hard time overcoming today.. cos' it's his birthday.. i never knew it hurt this much.. i never knew it at all.. it just struck me so hard.. that i fell without a single strength pushing me down. jiejie.. i miss you so..
cries.. i need you so much.. really..
cos' i'm not in his heart anymore.. not anymore.. i chose this path.. and this is what i have to endure.
i wished.. i never knew him.. never.. maybe.. i won't hurt this much then.. i won't.. i don't want to see..
last year.. that night.. we asked.. "what will us be like next year.. of this time?"
it's like this. i..
it hurt this much for the memories you've brought.
i'm redundant. forgotten..
i never.. expect.. never did.
jiejie.. can you ease my heart now? please..?
or.. anyone.. just stab it.. so.. it'll bleed profusely and die eventually?
i'm dead.
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