this is what i hoped. ya. maybe a silly person is always hoping. yet.. regardless the results might be, she'll still go ahead with her silly stuff. this is me.
shattered.. all impressions gone. my mum.. she doesn't have anymore good impressions left. i didn't know what i can do or what to do.. but i only can confirm one thing. it's impossible already. no more.
i am still this silly. do you know how it feels like to be pushed and pressurised? as in. to follow the flow. to go with what people thinks and shatters your own heart utterly by yourself? maybe. i'm still not sensible enough to make my own decision. i should. everyone's doing it for my own good.
this is something i can't go againist. hais.
in anyway, ya. i'm going to play with my senior. the guitar bas. hahas. ya.
i'm discouraged. to go into relationship. now. even if i would admire someone, i won't get involve anymore. i supposed. i won't.
when your story get twisted the way you don't want it to, close your eyes. you see nothing. let it go on, like nothing happens.
i chose my way out. to go on. anyway. i don't have much time left. 29 days from now.
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