she's ill. i feel so bad to make her upset. till now, she hasn't spoken to me. i haven't apologise. everything just goes on. hais.
extremely packed time. my brother placed me for work on saturday and sunday. i can't reject. he've booked. now, my camp is a goner. i think i can only truthfully speak to the in charge that i'll be back soon. hahas. and my brother who doesn't want to be left in the care of them except me, shall only accept this. hais. but i'll be there in the night i suppose. ya. hahas. no matter the lateness. what's life now? hais. so sian. everything clashes like mad. and i could say but to accept. where's my free time?
today wasn't much stuffs either. just early in the morning, 8.03am woke up and trying to cling onto my bed regardless the time is wasting away. i just love my bed too much. hahas don't wish to leave it. but yet return to sleep so late. weirdo me.
though i got up, as if stuck in the toilet bowl. cos' i sat there stoned. as if sleep, but not asleep. when i brushed my teeth and washed my face, came out. oh my god! 8.45am. walao. then i haven't changed. and haven't prepare my ballet shoes. haven't eat breakfast, haven't comb my hair. hais. then forget it la. i just went to changed quickly, took my hairband, ballet shoes, handphone, purse, socks and go. forget about combing and breakfast. and didn't eat liao.
reached there, 9.30am. zzz. teacher just looked at me.. with a quite.. fierce look. hahas. i said nothing. quietly do my stretching. and.. when i did well, she complimented me. but what.. she never see my face. then when she saw, "ah~? peixuan arhs.." then dot dot dot. monotone. no blames. i'm at fault to be late. though i bowed as apology and looked apologetic.
but after her dance lesson, she said,"peixuan, don't be late on monday. it's an important event." mm. yeah she cared. happy. hahas glad. yeah. and my baobei laopos and lovable friends had this decision, "let's dance till 6pm." and together with my juniors, we danced till that time. hahas. and i told them about a lot of ghost and haunted stories i've gathered in my school. but not all have been told. ya.. too much. hahas. aren't we hardworking? hahas. till 6.. hahas
and prepared the costumes and everything. ya. hahs. monday. i'll set off.. thank you wiie. for advising. i'll work hard.
saddened.. talking to my senior, guowei gorgor about relationships. hahas. and until too emo le. hahas. cos' still can't keep everything inside. just hurts.. and.. continuous.
i'm thinking. what am i trying to do. hahas. i've got no more idea. everything just got packed up together.
i still dwelling. regardless the disagreements of anyone's eye. it's between you and me. this is at least what i can do. yeah. be it anyone. it's only the 2 of us. only.. i'm not a perfect girl. an ordinary girl. who fell in love yet lost it. this is the only moment i can cherish. cos' no more time is left. at least. for the year.. last one.. last month, last moments, last memory, to love you continously and last in history, eternally. for now. i promise.. i'll be there when you need me. this year. the best year ever had. ever since 25october. all the joy. till now. never forgets.
despite all says. follow your heart. paths may be tough, overcome.
no rights, no say, yet will be free one day.
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