for the second time.. i quarrelled fiercely with her. she was angry that i scolded him. but who would have know he did so many things for my sake and in front of me all the mean things he made me feel angry for?
out of jealousy, i fiercely scolded him. ya this afternoon.. right early in the morning, he scolded me after i asked him loudly why he slept directly on my ironed uniform. all he did was giving me attitude that i should have put the uniform on the bed for bed is especially for sleeping, not putting clothes. ya i was speechless.. but for the least, he could have put it somewhere else if he wants to lie on the bed. i didn't say anything and went off.. gave everyone a bar of chocolate and went to school.
but still thinks that not even an apology. is not like i deserved his attitude. but whatever i do, especially being fierce to him, my mum would always jump to his defence no matter his fault or not. this gave me a conclusion that no matter what i say to get my only rights or fairness, it's useless..
what else can i do? then i got back home.. but before, i told my mum that i'll try to be home soon, the school only release me at 2. she thought i said i'll be back at 2. and when i got back home late after zapping the documents, asking my teacher for past years papers and wishing all the best for o level to my friends, she kind of upset that i got home late.
but the moment i see his face, just..the flare overflows and burst out.. i just went to rest.. trying to avoid doing some important documenting later that she had wanted us to do. but not with him. i was really angry.. cos' i've tolerated his occasion attitude. but no apology.. hais. then she said i didn't have enough sleep so i vented anger on him. siansation.
all i did this afternoon was cry and sleep. even an invitation to the movie from 2 good friends was rejected. hais. i don't know la.. all blames on me.. sway day. angry.
p.s: thanks for being there honey.. glad..
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